Ok... So Friday I was playing soccer, I do it only about twice a year now, after high school, because we have like two times where alumni can go back and play with the current team and stuff. So... I went back and last year I didn't stretch like I was supposed to and I re-injured a butt muscle that I had slightly pulled the year before, not doing anything soccer related though XD... So this year I remembered to stretch! I didn't pull anything this time. But I did something else. Ugh
I was running after this one kid, I'm actually pretty fast and I still work out and do martial arts and stuff, and anyway, I just... I don't know exactly what I did... or rather what happened-- I know what I did,, what I did was step off my right foot to change direction to go left, and as I stepped my foot just like, collapsed, on the inside or something and it felt like I broke my foot. Like no joke, there was a flash of, not necessarily pain, but just a flash of feeling and numbness and it felt like my foot had bent in half, but diagonally. And man, I was scared. I was really scared. I think at first I stopped and my first thought was "Can I move my toes? If I can move everything its not broken at least." I could move my toes and my ankle and stuff, but I could tell my foot was not right. I tried to then run again and stuff but as soon as I did I was like "Nope, nope, nope." Now, you'd think that I'd just stop, get off the field and go home and to the dr or something. But I'm... stubborn and I hate showing physical weakness. I especially hate showing physical weakness. I hate not being able to do what guys can do and then guys get all macho and that just annoys me XD So, since I didn't want to seem weak, plus I didn't think it was that bad, I was lightly limping, but you couldn't really tell, I stayed on the field. However, I could not run, or jog or really be of any use, except to just sort of... be there and maybe block a little or something XD
So, I went to the Dr the next day, after I iced it and used heat and did all that stuff, and they said stay off it for at least a week. They gave me crutches and a Dr's note and I wanted to cry. Not because I was in pain, it really didn't hurt, not even now, only when I stand on it, its uncomfortable, but I was so devastated that I couldn't work or do any activity for the next week, possibly longer of it was anything worse than a light sprain or something. And I'm the type of person where if I promise to do something and I prepare for it and get all hyped up, I am extremely disappointed when I can't do it, for whatever reason. I used to be that way about school, and now it's me and work. I hate letting people down and not being able to do what I've promised to do.
So, now, two days later, I'm not crying anymore, but I'm just trying to figure out, why-- why did this happen and what can I learn from it. Now, I'm not that person that says "Why God? Why did bad thing A or B or C happen, and now I hate you because my life isn't perfect." No, that's stupid. God Loves us and he wants the best for us. I think that he allows "bad" things to happen for specific reasons. We just can't always see those reasons until we look back on it. However, I'm that person that tries to look back, while I'm still behind XD I try to figure out what God is trying to do, even before he does it XD I'm like the ultimate God sleuth. I want to do his will and everything so I'm always trying to figure everything out. Its kind of a bad thing sometimes though, cause I over think a lot of things. Like, a lot. But maybe I'll talk about that later.
Overall, though, I'm not looking at this little injury (by the way, I don't know how bad it is yet, its still swollen and I guess it can be hard to truly tell, unless its super bad and super obvious, whats wrong and how bad it is when its still swollen, I guess, I dunno) as "Oh woe is me and all my plans are screwed up because of this". I'm trying to see the reason why, and what it might prepare me for in the future or maybe what I might have avoided by having this. Who knows, maybe I'll actually avoid an even worse situation because I can't do much, or I'll meet someone that I never would have. I try to look at it like that. Or maybe it could be as simple as, "always wear your foot orthotic..." Cause yeah... they don't fit in my cleats and I knew I should have just worn my tennis shoes.. but I was all "nah, I've been doing this for years without actually wearing them, I'll be ok"... *sigh* So yeah, if anyone would like to pray for my speedy recovery I will take it! XD And I hope that you are also ok, and I'll probably be on the internet a lot this week XD Or I'll be watching a lot of movies and TV, we shall see! Talk to ya later and God Bless! ^_^
Oh, also, when you do hurt yourself, take it easy. I know it might be hard for some of us to actually rest, but eating healthy, and drinking water and just plain resting is whats gonna be best for us, so yeah. Now I'm done! XD
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