Advice (?) to those people on the internet that feel "lost" and all that, I guess XD

     Has anyone else noticed that lately popular people on the internet have backed off or quit or are changing their view on it and stuff? Like YTers have made changes and bloggers have quit and stuff? Cause I'm pretty sure I've seen a lot more of that this year than ever before. But I do and I don't get why its happening. I do, in that I understand that a lot of people have gotten, basically, consumed by internet life and making stuff on the internet their lives and have lost other things because of it. But at the same time I sort of don't understand how it got so bad... Is that weird to say? I get why, like all the "facts" and "reasonings" make sense... but at the same time, they dont. But maybe that's just a wierd thing about me.
     I started this blog, because I was bored, basically. For YEARS I've been thinking about doing something online, whether it be making videos or writing stuff, I was just too paranoid to do so, but this year I was all "fuck it" XD There were times it really "felt" like God was calling me to do something, and then I'd film a potential video or write something or rehearse something, but eventually it went unpublished as time went on. (BTdubbs, I saw Alice Through the Looking Glass today and every time I say or think or write "time" I laugh XD) Anyway, I started this, knowing that I would not get "big", or rather, I'd have a very, very slim chance. And I was right. I get like an average of 5 views per post on this thing XD I wonder who ya'll are... Is it the same few people coming back or different people each time just clicking through and not really reading, but just viewing and so the counter counts it. I dunno. But I figure, if I'm meant to "get big" it will be because God gave it the go and stuff, and since it hasn't happened, I figure its just an outlet for me to talk to... well, whoever wants to read. I'm not out to make it big or do anything specific, not on here anyway, I was just bored and had this account at my disposal.
     That being said though, I don't go into depth with most of these bloggers and YTers that I see who are either quitting or changing something about their online selves, but from the gist of it, it seems like they got lost in all the work and the fame. Honestly, I'd say that most of these people don't know Jesus. Even though supposedly, like a lot of people, millions and billions of people say they are Christians, a lot fewer act like it and live like it. I think that the reason these people "lose themselves" or whatever is cause they ain't got Jesus! Cause if you got Jesus, you don't need nothing else, honey! And if you got Jesus, you'd know that you wouldn't have to worry about "the pressure of the viewers" and stuff, cause you'd only be making content for one person: GOD! Like, I believe that God is always watching and He's the only one that matters. I try not to do things, even this blog, for the... what the word, approvement? No... Approval! Of others. I'm not here to try to get people to like me or to have a following and all that, I'm just here cause I want to be and I think the internet is a great place to share the Word of the Lord. Now, I admit, I'm not always the best at that in person, but maybe being this confident on here, where I'm mostly anonymous, will encourage me to do it out there too. And actually, it has :) I try to stand up for what I believe in, not that I didn't before, but just a little more, ya know, and let people know, that yeah, I am a Christian. I might be "old fashioned" but I think that's the right way to live and I'm living my life for the Lord, not for other humans.
     So yeah, I feel like the topic shifted from where it started out... but I think it makes sense. I guess what all this is saying is that, as long as you got God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit and you obey His commands, you won't have to worry about stuff. If you got your eyes on God, it'll all fall into place and you'll have just the right amount of "fame" if you will. And if you happen to get big and find yourself "lost" just remember that God has found you and always knows where you are and all you gotta do is ask for help if you think you're stuck :) Also, just take a chill pill, cause fretting aint gonna get you no where. XD
     P.S- I learned the word "fret" from the 1st Pirates of the Caribbean movie XD
    

Beethoven's 7th Symphony, Movement 2

     I saw X-Men Apocalypse today (should I do a review of it? ... all in all, I liked it. Wasn't as good at Days of Future Past and it had some "really?" moments, but overall, I enjoyed it. Tomorrow I see Alice Through the Looking Glass) and I was reminded of, well, the title XD There's a part in the movie where the begining of this piece is played and I must say that it worked REALLY WELL in the movie! Like really well. And its one of those pieces that has been used in a lot of movies. I can't name them all, but the first time I really tracked it down was after I watched The Fall, directed by Tarsem Singh. I watched that movie because of Lee Pace XP But yeah, it played in that movie a couple times and I must have heard it before because it sounded so familiar, but that was the first time I looked it up. Its just one of those pieces that... lends itself to... movies. Like, I can't explain it, but I really like it. Its complex and you could use it for many types of scenes. Though, I think it works best in slightly ominous ones. Its got this... building tension and gravitas to it that just... really works XD I love it! I'm not really sure how to link things... is it the permalink on the side? Nope XD thats if I wanted to link this post. Do I just copy and Beethoven 7th Symphony, Movement 2 Oh look! Did I do it! XD Lets find out together eh??
     Well, until next time! Toodles and God Bless! ^_^

Poor, Poor, Rush Hour :(

     I forgot about Rush Hour last night so I went to go watch it this morning and there was not a new episode, and I thought, "Ok, that's normal, sometimes they take breaks for a couple weeks." But then I checked on Wikipedia (I go there for like everything XD especially movie and TV show info. They are very good at keeping up to date with stuff.) and it said that CBS cancelled the show!!!! *cries dramatically* If you read my post from earlier when I discussed why I loved Rush Hour (mainly because its funny and action packed and hello! Has an Asian in a REAL MAIN LEAD ROLE) you will know I really liked that show and it was my new favorite!! But alas! It is gone! They said that they will resume episodes July 23. JULY 23!!!! Holy Crap! So long from now! But at least, I'll be back from vacation XD But still, that means no more new seasons. WAAAAHHHHHHH >_<
    I really wonder why they cancelled the show. A lot of people were watching it and I think its a type of niche show that was really working. I feel like most crime TV shows aren't that funny and I really liked it. But you know what was the first thing that popped into my mind? That the people who cancelled it were racist. I know, I know, nowadays everyone throws around the word and most of the time its used improperly. But still, there are real racist people out there. I'm no saying thats why whoever cancelled the show, cancelled the show, but honestly, it was my first thought. I haven't looked into any explanations either, and its probably not why they did, buuuut it still makes me wonder. Then again, waaaay back when, CBS cancelled Moonlight and I really like that too. But that was all white people XD Jk, it was a crime vampire story, and I think it just didn't hit well with general audiences. Anyway, I'm just sad that there will no longer be any more Rush Hour :( I liked it. I just hope that TV shows continue to put more Asians in prominent roles, not just on Hawaii 5-0 and DR. Ken, or whatever that one on ABC is. I like that one, well, its ok. But I don't go out of my way to watch it online and stuff. I'd also like there to be more mixed couples and stuff on TV. I'm half German/Norwegian and half Filipino, so I wanna see more people that look like me XD All this reminds me of the Oscars So White thing... And I agree it was really white, but its been white before. And obviously, like everyone states, its not just one person or one area of the industry that's the problem, its a whole bunch of things. Anyway, I have hope that someday it will be all cool! Ok well, done for now. Talk to ya later! ^_^

"You Killed My Mother/Father"

     I have a confession to make! Dun dun dun! OK, its really not a confession, but I just wanted to say that. I've been watching The Flash tv series and Oh My Goshly Goodness its a really good show! It's not perfect, but its very good and there isn't a lot in it that annoys me, like the the asian dramas I so... dearly love... Anyway XD I'm watching The Flash and Barry says "You killed my mother!" and everytime I hear a character say "You killed my mother/father" I always think, and sometimes say out loud, "Prepare to die". XD XD XD Who knows what that is from? Huh? Anyone? XD If you guessed The Princess Bride then oh by gosh! You got it right! XD
     And when I say "always" I mean always. Its just one of those lines from a classic movie that I lierally always think of when someone says "You killed my mother/father". XD I haven't seen The Princess Bride in years but it makes me want to see it again. Its one of those movies where the first time I saw it,  don't think I saw all of it, but I liked what I saw. Then I got older and actually watched the whole thing, and for some reason I didn't like it. But I feel like if I saw it now, I might like it better. Its supposed to be one of those movies that is, like, timeless and is still really good. But I think at the time, it just wasn't my type of humour. I spelled humour the British way XD and my computer is all "um excuse me, you spelled that wrong, imma put a red squiggly line underneath it". But yeah, I think if I went back and watched it I might be able to appreciate it more.
    And that's it! That's all for today! Just a short one XD Mostly cause I want to get back to watching The Flash XD Although... I should probably give my eyes a rest... I ca tell I've been looking at a screen too long 0_o Whoops...

Thought I Should Post Something

     I had my one and only final today! Dun Dun Dun!!!! Should I tell you what subject? Ok, I will XD It was welding! That's right, I had a welding class this semester. Just for fun, and also just to see if I would like it as a possible career path, cause welders earn A LOT OF MONEY. Sure, it's a blue collar, construction job, and it can be quite dangerous, especially if you do, say, underwater pipe welding and stuff, but it earns very good money XD And I am not opposed to earning good money XD I'm not totally set on being a welder or any specific job, really, but I wanted to keep my options open and try my hand at something... useful. Cause lets face it, how useful is a degree in Psychology these days? Huh? I'd rather do more grunt work and have a job that is in demand, than be clean but not be sure of where I'm gonna work next, ya know? I feel like people and schools push University so much now a days, but 1- Its not for everyone and 2- Trade jobs are in high demand right now because the old people that used to do them are retiring! Trust me, I know. My dad is one of them. He doesn't do welding, but he does do a "blue collar/grunt work job" that pays a lot and is in need of new blood XD And I feel like a lot of people maybe think that welding and stuff is something that robots can do, but thats not true. What my teacher told me, and I believe it, is that, there are about 300,000 welders needed in America. 300,000!!!!! DDAAAAMMMMM! And that means that there are a lot of jobs and a lot of opportunities and, from what I've heard, you can basically choose when you want to work and still earn really good money. (By the way, backtracking here, but no offense to anyone with a Psychology degree XD It was just the first  one that came to mind.) But, so yeah, I frankly, wouldn't mind being a welder. I don't mind being sweaty and stuff and doing hard work. I'm just afraid of like, burning myself, or hurting myself in another way x"D Cause i've heard stories, from even the best wellders, of being hurt and stuff... and its not fun. I don't like pain XD So, that's one thing I'd have to really contend with, but I think that as long as you follow all the safety precautions, you really should be fine. I mean, my life is in God's hands and if something is gonna happen, its just gonna happen XD So yeah.
     I didn't start this out thinking I'd talk about welding, but alas, it happened. What else? Oh! Actually I did have a sort of eventful day... well, for a few hours. But I'm honestly not sure I should talk about it, cause it involved other people... Well... its  not like it was bad... Well it wasn't for me anyway... XD Should I? Well, I'll be vague and just say that I saw someone who I never reallu expected to see again, but I mean, we go to the same school XD And at first I was gonna ignore this person, but then this person saw me, so I decided to go up and say "hey" XD It could have been awks, but I think it went ok. It would have been funny to see what this person said after I left XD Cause I honestly mean no hard feelings to this person, and I don't think this person does for me either, its just something that... didn't work out, you know. But maybe this person sees it differently than I do. So, I dunno, in the case that this person ever read this and got that it was that person... I just wanna say, "I'm sorry if I did hurt your feelings in any way, and I'd honestly still be friends if you wanted :)"
    Anyway, yeah, totes vague XD But I'm sure you can sorta figure out what happened a bit. XD But yeah, finals are over!!! Since I aint got school I know work will pick up. But I'm excited to get back to work! I wasn't able to for a few weeks because of my foot injury!
     Also, since i brought up the vague person, I'll also just say, shoutout to my Art History teacher that I got to talk to again today! ^_^ I had a lot of fun in her class and she's a great person! Also, shout out to my welding teachers and stuff. They were awesome and helped me to improve so much! I still need a lot of work, but at least I have a foot hold now.
     Ok, I'm done with my speech! XD Until next post, God Bless and Toodles!!! :D

Thought Someone Should Know

     So… Here I go again XD beginning my post with “so”  XD Anyway, I’m at an airport and they don’t have free wifi. How boring. So I thought I’d type a little.

     I’ve been traveling, well you probably guessed that since I’m in an airport, but I’m not gonna tell you where XP just cause. But… ugh, who am I kidding, I don’t know what I’m gonna talk about. I’m sorta… down today I guess. For no reason, really, but sort of a reason. Well. More like a reason that I told myself I wouldn’t be sad or whatever if “Situation A” and “B” happen,  because its’ dumb to b sad or whatever about it, but I guess I still am. It probably doesn’t help that although yesterday was fun in some way it was also stupid in others. I feel like Job, from the Bible, sometimes. Like God is allowing the Devil (should I capitalize his “name”?) to mess stuff up more than usual ya know? So ugh. Or maybe its just the fact that when I don’t’ have a reason to force myself happy, like for work and stuff, when I don’t get enough sleep for like more than two days in a row, I’m just not the happiest camper. Like, when I don’t get enough sleep (“enough” being like 8-9 hour) I just start to mentally deteriorate. Not getting enough sleep really affects me. Well… I make it sound bad, and if I need to force myself to do something I can, but I don’t like it. And then, when little things go sorta bad its just like little pokes that irritate you and by the end of the say you’re just done. However, since I know the story of Job and all that, I never complain. Well, I sorta do, but its not like I’m all cursing out God and stuff. I understand that everything happens for a reason and I know that God is a Good Father and that everything will work out for the best in the end :) And that’s what keeps me going. I just keep my eyes on God and keep my faith in him and of course, things get better.

     Now, it quite annoys me when people say stuff like “keep positive” and “think positive thoughts” and “keep a good energy” or something, because I think it skirts around the idea of God, but tries to be all inclusive of people who don’t believe in God and ends up just being meaningless. Like, it just me or does it just not sound right to say to someone who’s having a bad day, “Oh, just keep a positive mindset and it will all turn out.” Like, how do I keep a positive mindset? By saying positive affirmations and exercising? That just sounds like a cop out. You try staying positive when shit hits the fan. -_-  On the other hand, I think its much more reassuring to place your faith in God and to know that you are in His hands and He has you and He loves you and He understands what you’re going through and that the hard times are just molding you into a better you. Like, why be on your own when you can lean on God. That just makes sense to me.

     Ok random, but a baby being carried by her mom walked by (or rather the mother walked by carrying the baby…) and I like to make faces at babies XD Funny faces and the baby smiled! :D So yeah, XD that’s nice ^_^

    But back to the topic… Now, I don’t always know who is a Christian and who is not, but I think that if you are, you should speak like one. Not just in being polite and nice to people, but just mention God more in your speech, and actually mean it. And also, don’t mention Him when you don’t actually mean it. Like, instead of saying “keep positive” and stuff, because its so vague and seem unattainable, say something more like “trust in God and He will help you through it”. Now, I’m guilty of this a bit too. Especially if I’m talking to someone who I don’t know. But I do actually say stuff like that when talking to those I do know. And I just mention this at the end here (I realize my topic and tone has shifted while writing this) but… I mention this because I think we live in a day and age where a lot of people say they are Christian and stuff, but they don’t act like it. And I want to challenge Christians to be more Christ like and not be ashamed to talk about God. Easier said than done, but I say, that if you’re afraid of persecution, either physical or verbal, just know that you are in the Lord and nothing against Him can stand. He holds the whole world in his hands :)  God Bless and I’ll talk to you later!

Final Thoughts on You're Beautiful and Ikemen Desu Ne

     I was almost not going to write this because I didn't want to relive the annoying bits, but I figured since I said I was probably going to, that I should follow through and just do it. Especially because I don't like it when people say they will do things and then I look forward to them... but they never do them. So! I will try to write everything that I publicly say I will :)
     Ok, so for the last like 5 eps of You're Beautiful I fast forwarded the boring parts XD So I didn't have to suffer as much, however, I also lost a little bit of the story. But eh, I'm not mourning that. So overall, I'd say that I do like Ikemen Desu Ne, the Japanese Remake, better than You're Beautiful, the original Korean version. Let me break down the reasons why.
     1. Its shorter. Both the episode count and the length of the individual episodes are shorter. Overall I'd say that the Japanese is about half to a a third shorter than the Korean and I think that the fact that it was shorter made it better because they had to move the story along quicker which means they had to get creative and tell the same story in less time. They succeeded.
     2. The acting is better. Maybe I just like Japanese humour a bit better or maybe the Korean one was too serious or maybe the acting was all round better, but I felt like I connected more with the Japanese characters and I felt more. I felt more joy and irritation and just more emotions. The main character that I liked better, and actually had an integral part to the story, was Shu/Shinwoo. The Japanese actor, I felt like he was just a better actor and I think I saw more of a range than I did with Younghwa, he played Shinwoo. The main thing that annoyed me with Younghwa's acting was his boring dead pan face that he had for most of the show. I dunno if thats what the directors wanted him to do, or if he was just such a newbie at acting that he couldn't do better, but it just wasn't good. I think it was supposed to be his sad face... but honestly he just looked dead, there was nothing in his eyes and I just felt nothing. Although, I will admit, the Korean cast knows how to cry XD Well, except Younghwa. But Park Shin Hye and Hongki and Jang Geun Suk, they all know how to cry well XD
     3. The expense of it. I noticed that the Japanese version was just more convincing in the... popularity and expensiveness of the band. AN Jell is supposed to be the most amazing band that Asia has ever seen, but in the Korean version, they honestly didn't seem that big. But the Japanese version, like dam! They went all out with venues and locations and stuff! It was just more convincing.
     4. The main girl. Ok, so I always have a problem when I can't suspend my belief of reality correctly. For example, in this show, I'm supposed to believe that a twin sister looks EXACTLY like the twin brother so much so that no one figures it out. I was waaaaaay more convinced in the Japanese version, solely on the fact that the actress looked more like a boy. Not like she was manly, but that she was really skinny and if you dressed her right she could actually pass as a prepubescent boy XD My main problem with Park Shin Hye is that she doesn't have the body of a boy at all. She has hips. Like seriously, and I could still see her boobs. But the other girl, like woah! She was a stick and barely had any hips. She could pass as a boy. But also, they wanted me to believe that her voice was manly... both of them did a bad job at sounding and acting like men. The Japanese actress I think did better though, she was less annoyingly girly. But Park Shin Hye's was... just way too childish and just not convincing at all.
     I was trying to think if I had another major reason... but I don't know... Just some other points though.
     -- UEE/Nana were total bitches. Actually, I'd say that Nana was a better bitch. She was more mean and UEE was more... rude. I didn't like either of them and they were stupid characters, and I'm praying for anyone who acts like them, cause they need Jesus 0_0
     -- The mother of the leader of the band was even MORE of a bitch. But she was a bitch in a different way. Uee and Nana were petty bitches that with some more time one this earth and a good reprimanding, could be fixed. But the bitch mother in here was despicable. I don't want to totally ruin it it someone is gonna watch either of the shows... but just know that she has serious problems and if she were real, she'd be on Dr. Phil.
     -- Also the stylist and the manager were pretty annoying... they were the reason for a lot of annoying things happening.
Now ya'll are probably wondering, did I actually LIKE anything I watched? And the answer is "yes"... however... its not a lot. I don't get how so many people love this show so much. There are just sooooo many flaws and problems with it that... I just cannot overlook. But I'd say that... there are some good things. Like, there were some funny parts, mostly dealing with the two main characters and then, in the Japanese version, the CEO of the company was really funny! XD I'm trying to think if I have a favorite part... I think in both of them, I actually liked the Taekyoung/Ren character. He wasn't stupid like the girl was, and we got to see a range in her personality. We really get to know him and I liked that. ... I still can't think of a favorite part though...
     So, in that case, I'll just say that all in all both shows are OK at best... not amazing but not terrible... Only sometimes. OH! What I will say though, is that if you only want to watch one, watch the Japanese one, however, I did have a much better understanding of the characters and story after watching both. The Japanese one leaves out some things but it also gives new depth to it as well, so yeah. Those are my thoughts! And sorry for saying the b word a lot back their X'D. But honestly, if you watch it, you will understand.

     TOODLES!!!! ^_^ Talk to ya later!

Random Catch Up Stuff

     We got Deadpool!!! The DVD, XD Do many people still buy DVD's, well, Blu Rays... We do. I like having a movie on demand, literally, and owning it, ya know? We, my family, doesn't have an extensive collection, but we've got most of the main stream movies. Well... most popular Sci-Fi/Fantasy movies like LOTR and Star Wars and Star Trek and all the Superhero movies and stuff. Does anyone remember HD DVDs? Cause I did a report on them versus Blue Ray when there used to be both XD Clearly, HD DVDs didn't pan out. And now its all about streaming and stuff. But I don't always have the best internet connection so I don't like to rely on streaming sites like Neflix and Hulu and all that. I just like having the DVDs and being able to watch things without the internet.
     I'm finally finishing up the Korea You're Beautiful. I stopped for a while cause it was just annoying me and the Japanese one was going much faster. I find that I'm doing in the Korean though is just skipping parts if I'm bored or irritated XD But I might to a wrap up for both versions and compare them and stuff cause I actually still have a lot to say.
     I forgot what I was gonna say next... Oh well, I'm full. We had belated Mothers Day dinner today cause last week I was injured and mi madre was sick. So today we got to celebrate and we went to a place that... gives big portions and just lots of food in general. However... I wasn't terribly impressed. I've been to better places that do that sort of BIG American style ya know, and my order just didn't  terribly impress me. It tasted good, but I had ravioli and I could tell that they were a premade frozen type because, well, sometimes I buy those kinds and when it comes out, the ravioli innards, they... you can just tell. You can. And I've been to other places that make their ravioli fresh, or at least fresher than that so... yeah, not terribly impressed but when that type of business serves the shear amount of food that they do, they aren't out to be perfect, they're out to give big portions. And they do focus on meat, so I'm not surprised that the ravioli was lacking.
     Oh! I still don't think this was the thing i forgot a paragraph back, but soon i'm gonna make a post on YTers I like to watch. I dunno if I'll break them up or just do it all at once. But YT is a big part of my life and I want to share those that I enjoy watching :)
     In the mean time, I'm LOVING Nigahiga's new one, the Kpop parody video, Dong Saya Dae! LOL! It's great!!!
     Anyway, talk to ya later! ^_^ And  God bless all the Mothers and Fathers! Since Fathers Day is next. :P
    

Fish Bowl!!! - Charades, but BETTER XD

     I'm writing this one, cause one of the blogs that I follow is Forty-Two^3 (I'm not sure how to get the tiny 3 up there... whoops), and those girls made a post about party planning and I mentioned a game that my friends and I like to play called Fish Bowl!!!! And hey friends if you're reading this! *waves* Hope ya'll don't mind me sharing this awesome game with the world! XD Not that many people read this... but eh.
     Ok, so fish bowl, is like charades, but it has three stages. It starts off by everyone writing down a word or phrase, up to 4 words long, on a piece of paper and putting it in some kind of container, a fish bowl perhaps?? Eh? XD And ya'll can do as many as you want depending on how many players there are. Oh, you also partner up! It's played in teams of two, though I guess if you had a lot of people you could play in more than just two. So you've all paired up and you got phrases written down and they're in a bowl thang, then you sit in a circle and across from your partner.
     In the first round one team member picks up a word/phrase and gets to describe it using words, other than whats written down, and the team member has to guess. You get 30 sec, or a min, whatever you want and you have to guess as many as possible.
     The second round, you can only use one word or sound. Only one! And its the first word or sound that escapes your mouth. But you can say that one word or sound as many times as you need to.
     The third round is straight up charades.
     The thing about this game though, is that after all the words and phrases are used up, you recycle them and continue to rounds two and three. So even though its harder to get the word or phrase across, you've already heard all of them so you just have to dig around in your brain for the answer.
     So yeah! I think that's all... Maybe if I forgot something I'll just make a comment or something. But its super fun! And it gets kinda cray! And its' great if you and your friends have a lot of inside jokes and stuff.
     Have fun and talk to ya'll later! :P

Cooking, omg I'd love to marry a man who can COOK!

     I start a lot of these posts with "so, blah blah blah" XD And I was so tempted to say "so" at the beginning of this one two. Then I decided to point it out XD I'm one of those people, I'm really self aware. Even if no one thinks I'm aware I'm doing something, I am. There aren't a lot of things that I do, that either, I don't do on purpose and for a specific reason, or that I don't know I'm doing them. Which... makes me seem really calculating XD Which... I kind of am. Which sounds... bad, but, I just like to be prepared and... you know what, I'm just calculating. XD There's no good way to say that. I try to play chess and Sherlock the shit outta life and stuff. But, in general, it gets me no where. I'm pretty sure that God is all, "I know you tryin to figure it all out, but Imma just BLAMO make everything a surprise that you never saw coming!" So yeah, I try to Sherlock stuff, but then I just think, "Let God do things in his own time. It'll be fine. Calm the f down."
     Ok! So on to the real topic of today! Cooking! Do you like cooking? Cause I don't. I just don't. I'm soooooo lazy when it comes to preparing food and stuff. I really admire people that do love to cook and are good at it, and even those that aren't good but they do it anyway. The extent of my cooking, usually, is just popping something in the microwave. The microwave is my best friend. I just pop stufff in and press a few buttons, wait and walk away, and BOOM! It's ready to eat! Yeah. Once in a while I actually use the oven, for like sweet potato fries or something, and then once in a while I use the George Forman (I dunno how to spell his name and Imma just leave it like dat cause I'm in a don't care mood XP) grill to grill meat or something. But yeah. I would much rather buy food ready made or have someone cook for me. I just do no enjoy the cooking process for some reason. Its just so boring and time consuming for me and ugh. I really, really, really, want to marry a man who can cook, and cook healthy!!!! :) Like, I will be so grateful to the Lord if he blesses me with someone who can cook!
     Weird, though, I don't mind baking. I feel like baking is easier than cooking, and if I'm baking it usually means something chocolate and I love chocolate and I'll bake to eat something chocolate XD So yeah, I could care less about cooking, when I live on my own, I'll probably just be like a raw vegan or something XD until I go out and eat.
     Well,  I think that's all. Also, sorry if my thoughts and writing seem jumbled, because when I'm typeing them, they do. Its usually cause I'm watching TV or YT or listening to other things at the same time and... yeah, it just messes me up a bit. But, this blog aint anything formal by no means! It's supes cas (aka, super casual) here and I'm just writing about things I think about and having some fun and hopefully making some new friends ^_^
     Tatta for now!!!!!! :P

Do You Love Da Spicy?????? Me... Not so much XD

     I had some leftover Indian food for dinner and it was supposed to be "mild"... Supposed to be XD I finished off my water bottle and my almond milk eating it. It was a Lamb Methi, btdubbs. But it makes me wonder about other people's spicy tolerance. I'd say I have a mild to medium tolerance of spicy. I can eat spicy things... but I usually want water or milk or something to, well, make it not so spicy. I don't actively eat spicy things, though, so I can't be all, "This is my exact level in terms of peppers," but for the most part I stay away from things that boast themselves to be spicy. I don't want to risk it ya know XD
     Some people in my family LOVE spicy food and spice in general, and some people, like, me try to stay away from it altogether. I'd say I'm a... occasional experimentalist. Sometimes I get the urge to want to eat spicy things and see how far I can go, but its really only if other people are eating things. I don't do spicy on my own, if you get what I mean. Its more like, I'm tempted by spice if I got something to prove XD But otherwise, I aint gonna pop a ghost pepper in my mouth just for fun.
     I think its funny though how different cooks have a different meaning of spicy, at like, one restaurant. I'm sure you've experienced this though. You ask for mild one day and its all good, you can take it, and then the next you swear your throat is gonna give out on you and you have had all the milk there is to have! Its also interesting, the different kinds of spice depending on what kind of food you are eating. Like Indian is different from Thai and Japanese is different from Korean and then the fact that spice is non existent in most west European foods XD
     But yeah, how do you like your spice? I just thought of the Spice Girls just now... I never really listened to them though. Even though that was like, my era. But eh. Um... I think thats it? So talk to ya later! ^_^

*sigh* ... When You've Hurt Yourself

     Ok... So Friday I was playing soccer, I do it only about twice a year now, after high school, because we have like two times where alumni can go back and play with the current team and stuff. So... I went back and last year I didn't stretch like I was supposed to and I re-injured a butt muscle that I had slightly pulled the year before, not doing anything soccer related though XD... So this year I remembered to stretch! I didn't pull anything this time. But I did something else. Ugh
     I was running after this one kid, I'm actually pretty fast and I still work out and do martial arts and stuff, and anyway, I just... I don't know exactly what I did... or rather what happened-- I know what I did,, what I did was step off my right foot to change direction to go left, and as I stepped my foot just like, collapsed, on the inside or something and it felt like I broke my foot. Like no joke, there was a flash of, not necessarily pain, but just a flash of feeling and numbness and it felt like my foot had bent in half, but diagonally. And man, I was scared. I was really scared. I think at first I stopped and my first thought was "Can I move my toes? If I can move everything its not broken at least." I could move my toes and my ankle and stuff, but I could tell my foot was not right. I tried to then run again and stuff but as soon as I did I was like "Nope, nope, nope." Now, you'd think that I'd just stop, get off the field and go home and to the dr or something. But I'm... stubborn and I hate showing physical weakness. I especially hate showing physical weakness. I hate not being able to do what guys can do and then guys get all macho and that just annoys me XD So, since I didn't want to seem weak, plus I didn't think it was that bad, I was lightly limping, but you couldn't really tell, I stayed on the field. However, I could not run, or jog or really be of any use, except to just sort of... be there and maybe block a little or something XD
     So, I went to the Dr the next day, after I iced it and used heat and did all that stuff, and they said stay off it for at least a week. They gave me crutches and a Dr's note and I wanted to cry. Not because I was in pain, it really didn't hurt, not even now, only when I stand on it, its uncomfortable, but I was so devastated that I couldn't work or do any activity for the next week, possibly longer of it was anything worse than a light sprain or something. And I'm the type of person where if I promise to do something and I prepare for it and get all hyped up, I am extremely disappointed when I can't do it, for whatever reason. I used to be that way about school, and now it's me and work. I hate letting people down and not being able to do what I've promised to do.
     So, now, two days later, I'm not crying anymore, but I'm just trying to figure out, why-- why did this happen and what can I learn from it. Now, I'm not that person that says "Why God? Why did bad thing A or B or C happen, and now I hate you because my life isn't perfect." No, that's stupid. God Loves us and he wants the best for us. I think that he allows "bad" things to happen for specific reasons. We just can't always see those reasons until we look back on it. However, I'm that person that tries to look back, while I'm still behind XD I try to figure out what God is trying to do, even before he does it XD I'm like the ultimate God sleuth. I want to do his will and everything so I'm always trying to figure everything out. Its kind of a bad thing sometimes though, cause I over think a lot of things. Like, a lot. But maybe I'll talk about that later.
     Overall, though, I'm not looking at this little injury (by the way, I don't know how bad it is yet, its still swollen and I guess it can be hard to truly tell, unless its super bad and super obvious, whats wrong and how bad it is when its still swollen, I guess, I dunno) as "Oh woe is me and all my plans are screwed up because of this". I'm trying to see the reason why, and what it might prepare me for in the future or maybe what I might have avoided by having this. Who knows, maybe I'll actually avoid an even worse situation because I can't do much, or I'll meet someone that I never would have. I try to look at it like that. Or maybe it could be as simple as, "always wear your foot orthotic..." Cause yeah... they don't fit in my cleats and I knew I should have just worn my tennis shoes.. but I was all "nah, I've been doing this for years without actually wearing them, I'll be ok"... *sigh* So yeah, if anyone would like to pray for my speedy recovery I will take it! XD And I hope that you are also ok, and I'll probably be on the internet a lot this week XD Or I'll be watching a lot of movies and TV, we shall see! Talk to ya later and God Bless! ^_^
     Oh, also, when you do hurt yourself, take it easy. I know it might be hard for some of us to actually rest, but eating healthy, and drinking water and just plain resting is whats gonna be best for us, so  yeah. Now I'm done! XD

The Little Things :)

Today, i shall write about little things that I like! ^_^ Since yesterday was pretty serious XD
1. Flossing my teeth! There is just something so satisfying about getting stuff out from between your teeth that has been stuck and bothering you XD (Btdubbs, my fav brand is Glide)
2. Removing the lint from the lint trap in the dryer XD  I dunno if I'm the only one that enjoys doing this, but it just bring me so much happiness from one little job! :D I have no idea why but I think its super fun XD
3. Seeing other people excited and overjoyed. I think a great way to see this is watching game shows where ordindary people win things like, The Price is Right ^_^ And I just love when my friends are super happy about stuff! :)
4. Seeing people do honest and scincere things for other people. Even it its just holding the door open with a smile and it even gets to me when in movies the superheroes save people. I love seeing others know and appreciate the value of human life. I mean, Jesus died to save our sins! The least we can do is hold doors open and smile at each ther ^_^
5. Protein shakes XD I know this one deviates from the vibe of the list, but I really like protein shakes XD I like when you can get almost everything you need in one glass and have it taste good. Though, I feel like all protein shakes (I go with non-dairy and whey ones, btdubbs) there is this texture and a bit of an aftertaste that you have to get used to, but after you do, you like it! XD
     So yeah! Those are five things I always enjoying doing and seeing and drinking XP
     Toodles!!!!

What to call this... Trust in the Lord and respect people and don't be like dramatic Asian dramas XD

Ok, I wasn't going to say anything more negative about Ikemen Desu Ne or You're Beautiful... but this was bothering me. And, actually several things are, but I'll try not to inundate ya'll with too much unless I really have something to say.
     So, I've noticed this a lot in Asian Drama's where there are love triangles and love squares and stuff and in this case it doesn't matter who the girl likes. (Cause lets be real, this usually is about a girl and that multiple guys like her cause it's girls and women that watch these shows.) Eventually, the other guys learn that each other likes the girl and they confront each other and they both say something like "I will never give her up!" (Cue the Rick Roll XD) But I have a real problem with this.
     Why do I have a problem with this? Simple, put, its selfish. I think why people like love triangles is cause it can be fascinating to see who the character ends up "falling in love with" and I don't mind that, I just have a problem with characters that are so obsessed with themselves that they don't take into account what the other person really wants and deserves. I think writers write love triangles, and make characters say things like "i'll never give up on her" because they want women and girls to feel like, "oh look! so many people love me! its great having to choose between so many people," but really, its just stupid.
     I have always been of the mind that if I like a guy and he doesn't like me back, either because he just doesn't or he has a gf or someone else he likes, I would never "fight" for him in the sense that these drama characters do. Like, imagine you're the person that supposedly everyone likes and they are "fighting" for you. It might be fun at first, but really, what they are telling you is that they don't care that you said "no" and they are not respecting your boundaries and feelings. In a small case like this it might just be a one time thing, but a continued disrespect of boundaries is dangerous and real problem in a relationship. I might be taking this down the slippery slope a bit,  but I think the only reason the writers write the characters to "fight" each other for one person's love is because they think its sweet. But its' not. In real life, its a problem and it can lead to bigger ones. Ya'll get what I'm saying?
     I mean, I've never actually met a person like this, although some of my friends have told me stories of their crazy and obsessed ex's and... its kinda funny, but also really disturbing. No one wants that. And I'm afraid that little girls, and boys, will watch these shows and think that this is what you're supposed to do. But it's not. We all have to respect each other and treat eachother with kindess and dignity. We are all God's children and we're all on the same playing field here.
     That being said too, I feel like people and characters get into the "fighting" mode because, for whatever reason, they don't trust God to bring them together with the person best for them. It's all about trusting God and realizing that you're first love, though real, may not be the best one for you and your entire life. That being said, though, I don't mean that you can marry your first love and think "oh it might change, and when it does, I can divorce him/her", NO! Marriage is sacred and you made vows, a promise, under God to stay together and work it out.
     Also, I'm not saying that its never ok to "fight" for someone you truly love. It just depends on the situation and what your motivations are. If you really believe that God is calling you to this person and maybe he/she is just in a bad relationship, then it might be ok. But its not ok to "steal" someone's gf or bf away. You've got to just be the best person you can to that person and let them come to you. No stealing allowed! Cause what is someone else if trying to steal you're bf or gf? How would you feel?
     So yeah, that's my thoughts on that and I hope it all made sense and that, also, you realize that not everything (or even most things) that happen in drama's, tv-shows, or movies is real and an example of how life should be. You want an example for life? Look at the successful marriages in your family and stuff. Even look at the ones that didn't work so you can learn. And above all, trust in the Lord, because He loves you and He wants what is best for you, and if you're patient and listen to Him he will guide you to exactly where you're meant to go and who you're meant to be with. ^_^

Skin Care Routine!! :D

     I've been so busy!!!! AHHHH!!! But I finally have a day off and this next week seems to be back to being pretty chill. Hallelujah!
     I was gonna post another... critique of Ikemen Desu Ne, but I figured I should talk about something I like, that I haven't talked about yet. And that is *drum roll* skin care!!!!
     Well... I like it and I hate it... or rather hate that I really have to have a strict routine. I'm def not the person that can not wash their face and never ever break out. (I have friends like that and its like, "daaaammmm, you got good genes!!!") I'm in my... I'll say early 20's (oh my gosh I revealed something! XD) and I started to get acne in like... 8th grade I think. But it wasn't bad, it was like one or two every so once in a while, and throughout high school I had worse eczema (yeah I got that too, basically REALLY dry skin, if you don't know) than I did acne. It wasn't till I got into college that my skin actually got worse. However... I think it got worse cause I was allergic to something, I'm honestly not sure what, and so I completely started over with my skin care routine and did a lot of research.
     So, a few rules that I try to follow for skin care are: no fragrance (artificial or "natural"), as few ingredients as possible, and keep it simple in terms of amount of products. Right now, I literally only use 4 things on my face. To cleanse my face, I use coconut oil (the Trader Joes brand-- I started out with olive oil, then I went to coconut, then avocado, and back to coconut cause of research and the fact that coconut is cheaper than avocado XD), then I use Paula's Choice Clear Anti Redness 2% Salicylic thang, and then Shea butter (i use the unscented Alaffia brand)and if I am going outside, I use the Paula's Choice Resist Super Light SPF 30 thang XD Yup! That's literally ALL I use on my face. Currently anyway. I'd actually like to use a facial oil/serum as well, like, maybe the Paula's Choice Vitamin C one, but right now... I aint got that money to really spend yet x"D
     But yeah! That's my skin care routine, for my face anyway (actually, for my body skin, I just use Aveeno, cause, yeah eczema. :/   Ummmm, if you have any questions, I guess feel free to ask. I think the only one I'd ask myself I didn't know, is why the Paulas's Choice brand so much? And really, I like them because, even though its not "all natural" or whatever, like coconut oil and shea butter, it is free of common skin irritants, which is what.. well... irritate your skin and can cause acne and redness and all that annoying stuff. So yeah. Along with my skin care routine I try to eat healthy, because your outside is a reflection of your inside and if I want my outside to be healthy, I gotten fuel my insides correctly. :)
     I think that's about all... Have a great day and talk to ya later! ^_^