Am I Missing Out, Not Having Social Media?

     So, this and YT is the only form of "social media" that I have... and its not a lot XD Especially when I hear that people have snapchat, instagram, twitter, facebook, reddit, a legit YT channel, vine (before it got all shut down), and all those things. And... it just makes me wonder whether or not I'm missing out a bit. And not... because I'm worried that I'm actually missing out on cool things, but more missing out on interactions I might have with people I might not otherwise, ya know? Like. I feel with every form of social media there is the potential to make new friends and meet new people that you never would have otherwise because they are just not physically around you. And I love making friends and getting to knew people. I love people XD People are cool XD But... almost as soon as all this stuff started, waaaaaay back with MySpace and even AOL (actually, I admit, as a kid I used to go on Yahoo and AOL chat boards... but honestly, there be some creepy ass mother fuckers on there 0_o) I vowed not to make an account and contribute to the... social media-ness.Part of it was because I wanted to be against the grain, dare I say it, "against the times" XD And part of it was because I was legitly paranoid about having too much personal information about me on the interwebs and part of it was because I also honestly hate making new accounts and having to remember passwords and all that. So... i've never had any thing of the sort. But, when I watch YT videos and see that to many of my fav YTers are communicating with their fans through these other platforms, it makes me feel like... I'm just missing out on the interaction. I do comment on YT videos and such, but it almost doesn't seem to reach some people like it does others. Well, obviously it doesn't. Anyway. I also look at some people, like Jess and Gabriel, YTers that just got married (and they are both younger than me... making me feel old) that never would have met and gotten to know each other if not for social media and stuff. I can't help but wonder if the same thing, might happen to me if I just became unstubborn and made a twitter or and IG or snapchat or something. Ok, this isn't just about me not having a bf XD but it makes me wonder, ya know. If I'm holding myself back for an actual reason, and I need to "let go" a bit. Or if it something that is unnecessary in my life and I'm just feeling bad for the moment because the grass always looks greener... So yeah... I suppose its one of the many times that I wonder about myself and whether an idea I'm having is God telling me to do something, or whether its just a fanciful idea and nothing more. I thought about that a lot even with starting this blog. I wondered "do I really need to? Is it something that will actually benefit me in my walk with God, or is it just something the devil is tricking me into thinking I want?" Ya know. I guess I tend to try to sleuth out God's plan for me so much, that I doubt everything I think I want to do. Obviously if a thought comes in my head like "man, weed is legal now, I should smoke it", I won't beccause I know its bad. But its the little things, and dreams I had as a kid like wanting to be a model or stuntwoman or a dancer or those things that I wonder if I was made to just dream about them, or actually try to do them. Because I know people on both fronts. I know people who have "followed their dreams" and it really has worked out, and I know people who have ended up in a place they had never even thought, but its still just as amazing. And the only reason it "worries" me is because I know that you, we, me... I have to put a certain amount of work into whatever in order for something to happen. Most likely, I'm not gonna have whatever it is, just handed to me, ya know. So here I am, feeling a bit stuck, feeling like its just best to take the more boring, but seemingly easier way out... because I'm afraid of wasting time and money on somethng that won't pan out. Ugh. And this is all still related to the social media bit XD If you're reading this far down and wonder how it went from that to this XD Well... its all connected in my head, anyway. And, I guess I am liking that I at least took up this blog, because its helped me to just get a few things off my chest and out of my brain a bit and to make room for new thoughts XD I guess I've sort of treated this like an open diary in a sense. That way, I don't think about it as a way to get a famous blog, you know, but I treat it as a... a platform, as a vehicle for me to clear my head and just get stuff out. Its not about the views or reads or followers, its about me XD That sounds selfish, but I think its a good thought to have. Because social media and all that is really fickle. One day you might be the internet's fav person, and the next you've said just one thing "wrong" and now they all want to crucify you. So yeah... I still wonder XD Still wonder if my friend making game would be enhanced with having one of the many social media platforms, but I think I won't. Won't make one. Because I think that God will meet me at my level and since i have made this choice, he will allow me to make friends and have relationships more locally. I think XD Anyway!!!!! This was one big long paragraph... Sorry about that, but Have a great day and God Bless!!! ^_^