I watched The Lady in the Van the other day and I liked it :) It has Maggie Smith (do I have to put Dame in front of her name?) in it, in a comedic role, and I love her in it. You've probably not heard of it, so I guess I should do a quick summary. Its about an old lady who is homeless and lives in a van and has a quick mouth XD And basically she is invited by the play write Allan Bennet to park her van in his driveway for a few months and ends up living there for the next 15 years XD
I saw the preview for the movie in some other movie I had rented and it looked funny and interesting and I just wondered how it would all turn out. Its a true story, by the way, and it was first a memoir and a play, and Maggie Smith had originally played Miss Shepherd in the original run of the play back in 1999 or something. Like... how interesting a relationship to have with someone. Should I talk about spoilers? Well, if you don't like spoilers... I guess stop reading. Well... I'll try to be vague, but I feel like a lot of people aren't gonna see this anyway. But, I really liked Miss Shepherd, she was my favorite and she has an interesting back story as well. I love how outspoken she is and how she just says what ever to whom ever XD I think after watching Downton Abbey, I see how perfect Maggie Smith is for this role :) It does remind me of Philomena a bit, though not as overall sad. But Miss Shepherd and Philomena are similar characters though have a bit different way of... aging XD I liked the Allan Bennet character fine. Obv, if you watch it, you'll see I don't agree with his lifestyle, but I like that he does the right thing, from what the audience can tell. And the way his character is portrayed is very interesting too, as it gives you a glimpse into how some authors must operate. I'm trying so hard not to "spoil" anything. There aren't many standout characters besides them two. But I do enjoy the supporting cast for they are overall very nice, but I wonder how accurate they were to the real people.
Ummmmm, what else can I say without giving much away? Well, I guess overall I really enjoyed and had fun with this movie and hope that some more people watch it and take away something good. I personally like the end to Miss Shepherd ^_^
Sunday, January 29, 2017
Sunday, January 22, 2017
*sigh*
I'm literally gonna keep this short. Not because I don't have a lot to say, but mostly because I just want to... make it known that there is one more person out there that doesn't hate Trump, and I... am disappointed in all the people who are hating on him and doing everything from protesting to rioting to being just as bad as they are accusing him of being. The devil is doing a good job of tearing people apart and making the opposition seem appealing. Imma do my best and stand with God, though, and just do my best to live my life out to His will and spread the Good News... even though I doubt it'll find many ears willing to listen. But, I'll still try... and hope :)
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
Lets Talk About K-pop
Or rather, lets have me talk about it and you read XD Cause that's usually what happens with a blog post XD Anyway... I just watched CLC's Hobgoblin and... well, while its a catchy song, and I don't mind the song and how it sounds, its just... a blatant attempt at the company trying to replace 4Minute. Like Seriously? There is one girl, that sounds exactly like Hyuna. And the concept is overall, very... 4Minute-ish. And before this, they were doing a year and a half of cute concepts. All of a sudden-- BOOM-- sexy/dark concept. Though, I do admit that its not as "sexy" as other have gotten. Its more like... a little girl trying really had to be like an older sister that has "gone to the dark side" but they are still so young that their imitation... does not look like flattery. By the way, I just read the English translation for the song and... they are trash. They don't mean much. All I can pull out of it is "hey, I'm beautiful, love me". Which, is never a good theme for a song. Or for anything, really. And side note, I also watched Seohyun's Dont Say No... and while the song isn't my type, its still ok, melody wise, and the lyrics are a little more... meaningful... but not by much.
Now, maybe I should explain what I do and don't like about pop (and songs and MV's in general) before I keep ripping on kpop. Ya'll know that I'm Christian and quite conservative. I don't like when song lyrics are untruthful, stupid, demeaning, or encouraging bad behavior. For example, I don't like when lyrics encourage out right, or suggest about sex. This is my main problem with most American pop. I don't think that sex should be encouraged because, well, outside of marriage its not right and its not good for people to think that its ok, especially since most Kpop fans are young girls. I don't want them to think that sex is what boys want and that's all that matters. Not true. Granted, Kpop is in Korean, but I also don't like when fans just like a song for the way it sounds but don't know what the lyrics are. I think its irresponsible on the part of the fan. When I like things, or "love" things, its because I like the whole part of it, not just one thing. And stay ignorant about the rest. I want to know the lyrics of these kpop songs because I want to know if what I'm listening to is something I actually agree with or not. I'm the type of person that won't even wear clothing with words or pictures on it unless I agree with it. I stick to patterns and plain colors mostly. But I don't want to wear a shirt that says something even as simple as "<3 SF" on it, because I don't actually love SF. Ya know? I have to agree with it whole hardheartedly. I also don't like when songs have lyrics about getting a boy to notice them. Like, especially in Kpop they like to have lyrics along the lines of "I'm so beautiful, why won't you notice me? Everyone else does." Literally, a lot of songs are like that. Including that Hobgoblin song. Actually I'd say that 90 percent of kpop songs are like that. Or they talk about the guy not being 100 percent into them or saying stuff like "keep your eyes on me and don't look at other girls" which on the surface sounds ok, but its just... annoying. Don't be so jealous that you strangle your bf. And a lot of songs are like that. And with boy groups I notice a lot of songs are about "unrequited love" or the girl doing them wrong some how. Like, girl songs are about wanting to fall in love and about being cute in the relationship and guy songs are about love lost or more increasingly, suggesting sex. And I don't mind songs about love lost or falling in love, as long as they are pretty truthful about the feeling ya know? And kpop songs are very repetitive and really just say a lot of nonsense, so its just... dumbs it down... so its cute and funky when you just listen to it and don't know what they are saying, but then you look up the lyrics and it almost shatters the dream XD
.... Not gonna lie, I just lost my thought, But I'm no where near done XD
How about I talk about things I do like about Kpop. When I got into it, late 2009, early 2010, it was just different and interesting and different than Japanese and def different from American stuff. Granted, back then I was into heavy metal and alternative, grunge/emo rock XD So Kpop was a major difference. But, I liked how most songs back then were pretty innocent. Not many groups were having super sexual music vids and dances and lyrics. But starting around... 2012 I'd say, the sexy stuff really began to blow up, with the boys and the girls. That was also when I started to not be as interested. Like 2013 till now, I haven't been as into it all as I was 2010 through 2012. My favorite groups were pretty much the ones from SM like Super Junior and SNSD. I liked how they always had catchy songs and interesting choreography that didn't rely on boob and butt closeups and choreograhy that was raunchy. And other than "You Think" their choreography throughout the years has been very clean, and really shows that those girls can actually dance without being overtly sexy. I cannot say the same for other groups. And the only reason those other groups are being pushed to do sexy concepts s because the company makes more money with the sexy concepts. Their MV's get more views if they aren't a super well established group, and they usually get more popular. However, the past year has seen a rise in new groups being cute again. And frankly I like the cute ones better. But the ones I like even better are the ones that aren't just bubble gum cute or slutty, its the ones that are just normal and have good voices and good choreography. I think the best group lately of this has been Gfriend. They aren't overly cute and they aren't a sexy group. There are a few more too, but a lot of groups, though they started off cute, have had at least once sexy MV and song. Like APink. They have this one song, that I dont like, that is sexy while the rest of their stuff is pretty cute. A group like Secret went back ad forth quite a few times. SNSD did a good job of not being too much of either too. I know I'm leaving out a ton of groups, but this thing is already getting long. Maybe I'll do another post and go through every single Kpop group and share my opinions and favs songs. As for the boy groups... I like when they aren't suggesting sex and pulling at their crotch -_- I really hate that move. BTS is really big right now... and while their songs are catchy, their lyrics aren't the best and their dance moves are not always clean.
Over the years Kpop has changed. For good and for bad and I can't do anything about that. I have a lot of thoughts about different things about the Korean entertainment industry that I won't go into. But Kpop is a product of the culture and them wanting to be as far reaching and international friendly as possible. Personally, I like the mild stuff. The stuff that just gives an a good song with a catchy beat and doesn't have choreography that emphasizes either boobs, one's butt or crotch. I just don't want to see that. I want to see if you can dance, not if you can twerk. That is not dancing. And omg, don't get me started on outfits... though I'm sure you can guess what I like and don't like. Basically, keep it modest, people, keep it modest.
What are my final thoughts? I will continue to listen to kpop and keep up with it to a point, but I don't think I'll ever be as into it like when I first discovered it. Oh, and I'll probably make another post about idol worship because I hate how the fans of kpop are often more like stalkers and they care waaaaayyyy too much about people they have never met and will probably never meet. I have a bit of a personal... experience with that, but I look at these girls (most of them are girls) and just shake my head at how... dependent their lives seem on kpop. Ya'lls lives should be dependant on Jesus! Not kpop. Geez, but thats another post. Uhhhh.... for now, I guess I'll say that even though I basically ripped on Kpop, its still a lot of fun to get into the music. Just be careful of some of them and know the lyrics and don't learn some of the dances XD But, also, don't blame the actual group, because a lot of the time, the group has not much say into what they get to do and not do. A lot of it is the company doing what they think will make the most money. So yeah... I guess I'll say Toodles now XD God Bless!
Now, maybe I should explain what I do and don't like about pop (and songs and MV's in general) before I keep ripping on kpop. Ya'll know that I'm Christian and quite conservative. I don't like when song lyrics are untruthful, stupid, demeaning, or encouraging bad behavior. For example, I don't like when lyrics encourage out right, or suggest about sex. This is my main problem with most American pop. I don't think that sex should be encouraged because, well, outside of marriage its not right and its not good for people to think that its ok, especially since most Kpop fans are young girls. I don't want them to think that sex is what boys want and that's all that matters. Not true. Granted, Kpop is in Korean, but I also don't like when fans just like a song for the way it sounds but don't know what the lyrics are. I think its irresponsible on the part of the fan. When I like things, or "love" things, its because I like the whole part of it, not just one thing. And stay ignorant about the rest. I want to know the lyrics of these kpop songs because I want to know if what I'm listening to is something I actually agree with or not. I'm the type of person that won't even wear clothing with words or pictures on it unless I agree with it. I stick to patterns and plain colors mostly. But I don't want to wear a shirt that says something even as simple as "<3 SF" on it, because I don't actually love SF. Ya know? I have to agree with it whole hardheartedly. I also don't like when songs have lyrics about getting a boy to notice them. Like, especially in Kpop they like to have lyrics along the lines of "I'm so beautiful, why won't you notice me? Everyone else does." Literally, a lot of songs are like that. Including that Hobgoblin song. Actually I'd say that 90 percent of kpop songs are like that. Or they talk about the guy not being 100 percent into them or saying stuff like "keep your eyes on me and don't look at other girls" which on the surface sounds ok, but its just... annoying. Don't be so jealous that you strangle your bf. And a lot of songs are like that. And with boy groups I notice a lot of songs are about "unrequited love" or the girl doing them wrong some how. Like, girl songs are about wanting to fall in love and about being cute in the relationship and guy songs are about love lost or more increasingly, suggesting sex. And I don't mind songs about love lost or falling in love, as long as they are pretty truthful about the feeling ya know? And kpop songs are very repetitive and really just say a lot of nonsense, so its just... dumbs it down... so its cute and funky when you just listen to it and don't know what they are saying, but then you look up the lyrics and it almost shatters the dream XD
.... Not gonna lie, I just lost my thought, But I'm no where near done XD
How about I talk about things I do like about Kpop. When I got into it, late 2009, early 2010, it was just different and interesting and different than Japanese and def different from American stuff. Granted, back then I was into heavy metal and alternative, grunge/emo rock XD So Kpop was a major difference. But, I liked how most songs back then were pretty innocent. Not many groups were having super sexual music vids and dances and lyrics. But starting around... 2012 I'd say, the sexy stuff really began to blow up, with the boys and the girls. That was also when I started to not be as interested. Like 2013 till now, I haven't been as into it all as I was 2010 through 2012. My favorite groups were pretty much the ones from SM like Super Junior and SNSD. I liked how they always had catchy songs and interesting choreography that didn't rely on boob and butt closeups and choreograhy that was raunchy. And other than "You Think" their choreography throughout the years has been very clean, and really shows that those girls can actually dance without being overtly sexy. I cannot say the same for other groups. And the only reason those other groups are being pushed to do sexy concepts s because the company makes more money with the sexy concepts. Their MV's get more views if they aren't a super well established group, and they usually get more popular. However, the past year has seen a rise in new groups being cute again. And frankly I like the cute ones better. But the ones I like even better are the ones that aren't just bubble gum cute or slutty, its the ones that are just normal and have good voices and good choreography. I think the best group lately of this has been Gfriend. They aren't overly cute and they aren't a sexy group. There are a few more too, but a lot of groups, though they started off cute, have had at least once sexy MV and song. Like APink. They have this one song, that I dont like, that is sexy while the rest of their stuff is pretty cute. A group like Secret went back ad forth quite a few times. SNSD did a good job of not being too much of either too. I know I'm leaving out a ton of groups, but this thing is already getting long. Maybe I'll do another post and go through every single Kpop group and share my opinions and favs songs. As for the boy groups... I like when they aren't suggesting sex and pulling at their crotch -_- I really hate that move. BTS is really big right now... and while their songs are catchy, their lyrics aren't the best and their dance moves are not always clean.
Over the years Kpop has changed. For good and for bad and I can't do anything about that. I have a lot of thoughts about different things about the Korean entertainment industry that I won't go into. But Kpop is a product of the culture and them wanting to be as far reaching and international friendly as possible. Personally, I like the mild stuff. The stuff that just gives an a good song with a catchy beat and doesn't have choreography that emphasizes either boobs, one's butt or crotch. I just don't want to see that. I want to see if you can dance, not if you can twerk. That is not dancing. And omg, don't get me started on outfits... though I'm sure you can guess what I like and don't like. Basically, keep it modest, people, keep it modest.
What are my final thoughts? I will continue to listen to kpop and keep up with it to a point, but I don't think I'll ever be as into it like when I first discovered it. Oh, and I'll probably make another post about idol worship because I hate how the fans of kpop are often more like stalkers and they care waaaaayyyy too much about people they have never met and will probably never meet. I have a bit of a personal... experience with that, but I look at these girls (most of them are girls) and just shake my head at how... dependent their lives seem on kpop. Ya'lls lives should be dependant on Jesus! Not kpop. Geez, but thats another post. Uhhhh.... for now, I guess I'll say that even though I basically ripped on Kpop, its still a lot of fun to get into the music. Just be careful of some of them and know the lyrics and don't learn some of the dances XD But, also, don't blame the actual group, because a lot of the time, the group has not much say into what they get to do and not do. A lot of it is the company doing what they think will make the most money. So yeah... I guess I'll say Toodles now XD God Bless!
Saturday, January 14, 2017
The Road Goes Ever On and On
This is just gonna be a short post, I hope, to say, once more, but probably not for the last time, how... utterly grateful and thankful to the people, the cast and the crew of the Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit movies.
I just finished watching ALL of the appendices, just now, like 5 min ago and... those movies and what I've been able to know about how they were made, are just truly special. First of all, the source material, Tolkein's writings are amazing and rich with his belief in God and I believe that the movies, though they may not have been made by Christians or with the intent of being related to Christianity-- they movies, they still hold this wonderfulness to them that can only come from God. I truly think that the movies were blessed and that they are so wonderful because of it.
I've also said it before and I'll say again, that I wish I could thank everyone for making these movies and putting their hearts in them and bringing a bit of Tolkien to life and for sharing Tolkien with people that may not have had an interaction with him or his writings previously. I would thank everyone from the director, Peter Jackson, to the cast like Elijah Wood and Martin Freeman and Ian Mckellan, all the way to the costume designers (I loooovvveeee the costumes) and Alan Lee and John Howe, to the stunt people to the folly artists and the even the people that catered and made coffee for everyone. I just, truly have loved these movies and I believe them to be a great group effort and everyone is to be thanked.
I sort of wish I could have been old enough to have worked on films, but alas. It was not so, but that ok, because I've been able to thoroughly enjoy them and that's been amazing. These six films are and will continue to be my favorite movies of all time and... (gah, running out of eloquence XD) well... I just... wish I could truly thank everyone :)
Well, its late now XD Toodles and God Bless and thank you to all! ^_^
I just finished watching ALL of the appendices, just now, like 5 min ago and... those movies and what I've been able to know about how they were made, are just truly special. First of all, the source material, Tolkein's writings are amazing and rich with his belief in God and I believe that the movies, though they may not have been made by Christians or with the intent of being related to Christianity-- they movies, they still hold this wonderfulness to them that can only come from God. I truly think that the movies were blessed and that they are so wonderful because of it.
I've also said it before and I'll say again, that I wish I could thank everyone for making these movies and putting their hearts in them and bringing a bit of Tolkien to life and for sharing Tolkien with people that may not have had an interaction with him or his writings previously. I would thank everyone from the director, Peter Jackson, to the cast like Elijah Wood and Martin Freeman and Ian Mckellan, all the way to the costume designers (I loooovvveeee the costumes) and Alan Lee and John Howe, to the stunt people to the folly artists and the even the people that catered and made coffee for everyone. I just, truly have loved these movies and I believe them to be a great group effort and everyone is to be thanked.
I sort of wish I could have been old enough to have worked on films, but alas. It was not so, but that ok, because I've been able to thoroughly enjoy them and that's been amazing. These six films are and will continue to be my favorite movies of all time and... (gah, running out of eloquence XD) well... I just... wish I could truly thank everyone :)
Well, its late now XD Toodles and God Bless and thank you to all! ^_^
Sunday, January 8, 2017
Cool Things :)
I wanted to write a fluffy post on things I've been liking recently :) First of all SHERLOCK SEASON 4 IS ON TONIGHT!!!!! :D I'm excited!!!!!! I'm gonna pick up one of my friends and bring her back to my house so we can watch it together ^_^
Also, I've been watching The Hobbit Special Edition special features again XD I'm on TDOS and I just love to watch how these movies got made and how much fun everyone had working on these movies and how much heart and dedication went in to making these movies. I know a lot of people think The Hobbit movies aren't as good at LOTR... and I do enjoy LOTR just a bit better, but I think the... story in LOTR and the reason for the quest is much more dire and more flushed out. I like both of them soooooo much! They are my favorite movies and I already did a post on this XD But, I just wanted to mention I'm enjoying watching them ^_^
Oh my gosh! So yesterday I was looking for ringtones for my alarm and I came across this metal version of LOTR and I was like, "this is super cool", so I looked on YT and low and behold there is a dude, 331Erock that does heavy metal sort of covers of popular songs, TV and movie themes, video game themes, and so on! Its sooooooo goooooodddd! I don't listen to as much heavy metal and rock as I used to since being in kpop, but I still love a good Iron Maiden song XD And this dude also loves Iron Maiden and sometimes icorporates some IM into his covers. This dude is super cool and talented and omg, his Man of Steel one is really good tooooo! Well, everything I've listened to so far is amazing! It makes me want to listen to rock again XD Well, heavy metal XP
Back to Sherlock, though. Its been two years since season 3!!! And one year since The Abominable Bride! And now its back! For 2 more eps anyway XD I started watching Sherlock between the 2nd and 3rd season, right after I saw BC in Star Trek XD And I've got a post about that... its very fan girly... but its true XD And maybe when this season is over I'll do a review? I probably should have done one last week... but I was.. busy... yeah. So Maybe after this one I will. Or maybe just next week when I can reflect on all three of them.
What else... Well, my mom decided to get some pistachios this week and those have been good. Though, we haven't gone actual grocery shopping in a while and I've been lacking in fruits and I think its part of the reason why I've been getting headaches these past few days... I should probably take a multivitamin... Um... but I miss my fruit, and I haven't worked in a while and technically don't have any cash on me... otherwise I would have bought fruit earlier.. But I think I will tomorrow or something.
What else... *strokes imaginary beard * Well, in general I'm alive and I think that's great :) Thanks God! XD And I did start reading the Bible from the beginning and I love Genesis because its, its like learning ancient history and I love ancient history! I'm glad to be living in this day of modern medicine and such, but, looking back at the very early times always have fascinated me.
I've also been thinking about stories and characters and stuff... We shall see if any of that comes through. And I know I said I might post some songs or something... but we shall see XD
Ummmmm... I'm gonna make some mac n cheese now so Toodles! And God Bless! ^_^
Also, I've been watching The Hobbit Special Edition special features again XD I'm on TDOS and I just love to watch how these movies got made and how much fun everyone had working on these movies and how much heart and dedication went in to making these movies. I know a lot of people think The Hobbit movies aren't as good at LOTR... and I do enjoy LOTR just a bit better, but I think the... story in LOTR and the reason for the quest is much more dire and more flushed out. I like both of them soooooo much! They are my favorite movies and I already did a post on this XD But, I just wanted to mention I'm enjoying watching them ^_^
Oh my gosh! So yesterday I was looking for ringtones for my alarm and I came across this metal version of LOTR and I was like, "this is super cool", so I looked on YT and low and behold there is a dude, 331Erock that does heavy metal sort of covers of popular songs, TV and movie themes, video game themes, and so on! Its sooooooo goooooodddd! I don't listen to as much heavy metal and rock as I used to since being in kpop, but I still love a good Iron Maiden song XD And this dude also loves Iron Maiden and sometimes icorporates some IM into his covers. This dude is super cool and talented and omg, his Man of Steel one is really good tooooo! Well, everything I've listened to so far is amazing! It makes me want to listen to rock again XD Well, heavy metal XP
Back to Sherlock, though. Its been two years since season 3!!! And one year since The Abominable Bride! And now its back! For 2 more eps anyway XD I started watching Sherlock between the 2nd and 3rd season, right after I saw BC in Star Trek XD And I've got a post about that... its very fan girly... but its true XD And maybe when this season is over I'll do a review? I probably should have done one last week... but I was.. busy... yeah. So Maybe after this one I will. Or maybe just next week when I can reflect on all three of them.
What else... Well, my mom decided to get some pistachios this week and those have been good. Though, we haven't gone actual grocery shopping in a while and I've been lacking in fruits and I think its part of the reason why I've been getting headaches these past few days... I should probably take a multivitamin... Um... but I miss my fruit, and I haven't worked in a while and technically don't have any cash on me... otherwise I would have bought fruit earlier.. But I think I will tomorrow or something.
What else... *strokes imaginary beard * Well, in general I'm alive and I think that's great :) Thanks God! XD And I did start reading the Bible from the beginning and I love Genesis because its, its like learning ancient history and I love ancient history! I'm glad to be living in this day of modern medicine and such, but, looking back at the very early times always have fascinated me.
I've also been thinking about stories and characters and stuff... We shall see if any of that comes through. And I know I said I might post some songs or something... but we shall see XD
Ummmmm... I'm gonna make some mac n cheese now so Toodles! And God Bless! ^_^
Thursday, January 5, 2017
Am I Missing Out, Not Having Social Media?
So, this and YT is the only form of "social media" that I have... and its not a lot XD Especially when I hear that people have snapchat, instagram, twitter, facebook, reddit, a legit YT channel, vine (before it got all shut down), and all those things. And... it just makes me wonder whether or not I'm missing out a bit. And not... because I'm worried that I'm actually missing out on cool things, but more missing out on interactions I might have with people I might not otherwise, ya know? Like. I feel with every form of social media there is the potential to make new friends and meet new people that you never would have otherwise because they are just not physically around you. And I love making friends and getting to knew people. I love people XD People are cool XD But... almost as soon as all this stuff started, waaaaaay back with MySpace and even AOL (actually, I admit, as a kid I used to go on Yahoo and AOL chat boards... but honestly, there be some creepy ass mother fuckers on there 0_o) I vowed not to make an account and contribute to the... social media-ness.Part of it was because I wanted to be against the grain, dare I say it, "against the times" XD And part of it was because I was legitly paranoid about having too much personal information about me on the interwebs and part of it was because I also honestly hate making new accounts and having to remember passwords and all that. So... i've never had any thing of the sort. But, when I watch YT videos and see that to many of my fav YTers are communicating with their fans through these other platforms, it makes me feel like... I'm just missing out on the interaction. I do comment on YT videos and such, but it almost doesn't seem to reach some people like it does others. Well, obviously it doesn't. Anyway. I also look at some people, like Jess and Gabriel, YTers that just got married (and they are both younger than me... making me feel old) that never would have met and gotten to know each other if not for social media and stuff. I can't help but wonder if the same thing, might happen to me if I just became unstubborn and made a twitter or and IG or snapchat or something. Ok, this isn't just about me not having a bf XD but it makes me wonder, ya know. If I'm holding myself back for an actual reason, and I need to "let go" a bit. Or if it something that is unnecessary in my life and I'm just feeling bad for the moment because the grass always looks greener... So yeah... I suppose its one of the many times that I wonder about myself and whether an idea I'm having is God telling me to do something, or whether its just a fanciful idea and nothing more. I thought about that a lot even with starting this blog. I wondered "do I really need to? Is it something that will actually benefit me in my walk with God, or is it just something the devil is tricking me into thinking I want?" Ya know. I guess I tend to try to sleuth out God's plan for me so much, that I doubt everything I think I want to do. Obviously if a thought comes in my head like "man, weed is legal now, I should smoke it", I won't beccause I know its bad. But its the little things, and dreams I had as a kid like wanting to be a model or stuntwoman or a dancer or those things that I wonder if I was made to just dream about them, or actually try to do them. Because I know people on both fronts. I know people who have "followed their dreams" and it really has worked out, and I know people who have ended up in a place they had never even thought, but its still just as amazing. And the only reason it "worries" me is because I know that you, we, me... I have to put a certain amount of work into whatever in order for something to happen. Most likely, I'm not gonna have whatever it is, just handed to me, ya know. So here I am, feeling a bit stuck, feeling like its just best to take the more boring, but seemingly easier way out... because I'm afraid of wasting time and money on somethng that won't pan out. Ugh. And this is all still related to the social media bit XD If you're reading this far down and wonder how it went from that to this XD Well... its all connected in my head, anyway. And, I guess I am liking that I at least took up this blog, because its helped me to just get a few things off my chest and out of my brain a bit and to make room for new thoughts XD I guess I've sort of treated this like an open diary in a sense. That way, I don't think about it as a way to get a famous blog, you know, but I treat it as a... a platform, as a vehicle for me to clear my head and just get stuff out. Its not about the views or reads or followers, its about me XD That sounds selfish, but I think its a good thought to have. Because social media and all that is really fickle. One day you might be the internet's fav person, and the next you've said just one thing "wrong" and now they all want to crucify you. So yeah... I still wonder XD Still wonder if my friend making game would be enhanced with having one of the many social media platforms, but I think I won't. Won't make one. Because I think that God will meet me at my level and since i have made this choice, he will allow me to make friends and have relationships more locally. I think XD Anyway!!!!! This was one big long paragraph... Sorry about that, but Have a great day and God Bless!!! ^_^
Sunday, January 1, 2017
Holy Moly...
Well... this past week... has been... hectic and stressful, in a way that it never has before... And its been bad... x"D And I'm not gonna get into details, because I'm comfortable sharing about myself, but not about other people. But.. lets just say I've been caught between some things and people, where I myself am not in trouble... but I'm more trying to help and mediate and "fix" the problem. Yeah... And this isn't the first time I've had to do things like this... but its def the first time its happened that I've had a blog XD And it feels good to sorta tell someone ya know? Even if its not in detail.
So what I was trying to figure out today, was why. Not like "why God is this happening to me, I hate you." But a genuine "why is this happening? what can I learn from it? what am I supposed to learn from it? and how can I get better at what I'm doing?" Its not a complaining "why" its a... curious "why" if you get what I mean. And... I'm gonna be honest, I don't have many ideas right now XD At first I was just trying to get through them. One step at a time. And that's one thing I've learned over the years: if you got a problem, that fine, but how do you solve it? And once you know how to solve it, just do the steps. Do one things at a time and don't freak out. It'll be ok. If you, yourself, don't know how to solve it, then ask someone who does. Even if you have to ask the police or someone professional, you know. It does no good to just freak out and wonder what to do. Figure out what you have to do to remedy the situation.
So yeah, that's what I did earlier in the week and it went well...So far XD Time will tell, but over the years this... one particular situation has gotten a bit better. Its gone up and down, but... overall, I think its gotten just a tad bit better. As for another situation... its almost gotten a tad bit worse as the years have gone by... Interesting. I just thought about that. huh. Anyway... so its constantly trying new tactics and new strategies to stay ahead and to mend old problems. Old techniques work too XD But you have to reintroduce them for them to stick.
But... I have no idea why I'm the one that has to directly deal with these things... and it just makes me curious. I assume its God slowly molding me into a person that isn't the things I've had to deal with in others. I'm learning from their mistakes and observing the kind of person I should be based on what I don't like and what is... harmful for others. Which, sounds like common sense, but some people have less of it than they think. Maybe I'm supposed to do something, career wise, similar to what I've been doing too. Or maybe I'll just meet more people in the future with similar... issues.. and be able to help and deal with them better. But man, I just keep praying to the Lord like, "Help me say what needs to be said. Help who I'm saying it to to honestly listen. Work through me and in them to med this situation and hopefully establish an even better one!" Yeah... Now I dunno if by being vague I'm making this sound better... or worse than it actually is... But... I just wanted to write this real quick :) And to Say Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! ^_^ God bless!
So what I was trying to figure out today, was why. Not like "why God is this happening to me, I hate you." But a genuine "why is this happening? what can I learn from it? what am I supposed to learn from it? and how can I get better at what I'm doing?" Its not a complaining "why" its a... curious "why" if you get what I mean. And... I'm gonna be honest, I don't have many ideas right now XD At first I was just trying to get through them. One step at a time. And that's one thing I've learned over the years: if you got a problem, that fine, but how do you solve it? And once you know how to solve it, just do the steps. Do one things at a time and don't freak out. It'll be ok. If you, yourself, don't know how to solve it, then ask someone who does. Even if you have to ask the police or someone professional, you know. It does no good to just freak out and wonder what to do. Figure out what you have to do to remedy the situation.
So yeah, that's what I did earlier in the week and it went well...So far XD Time will tell, but over the years this... one particular situation has gotten a bit better. Its gone up and down, but... overall, I think its gotten just a tad bit better. As for another situation... its almost gotten a tad bit worse as the years have gone by... Interesting. I just thought about that. huh. Anyway... so its constantly trying new tactics and new strategies to stay ahead and to mend old problems. Old techniques work too XD But you have to reintroduce them for them to stick.
But... I have no idea why I'm the one that has to directly deal with these things... and it just makes me curious. I assume its God slowly molding me into a person that isn't the things I've had to deal with in others. I'm learning from their mistakes and observing the kind of person I should be based on what I don't like and what is... harmful for others. Which, sounds like common sense, but some people have less of it than they think. Maybe I'm supposed to do something, career wise, similar to what I've been doing too. Or maybe I'll just meet more people in the future with similar... issues.. and be able to help and deal with them better. But man, I just keep praying to the Lord like, "Help me say what needs to be said. Help who I'm saying it to to honestly listen. Work through me and in them to med this situation and hopefully establish an even better one!" Yeah... Now I dunno if by being vague I'm making this sound better... or worse than it actually is... But... I just wanted to write this real quick :) And to Say Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! ^_^ God bless!
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