So I told myself that I would look at new job opportunities today/tonight, and so I did... But I feel.. more annoyed and less sure than before! x"D I'm trying to focus on local jobs that are stable and pay well, but also ones that my feeble resume could even attempt to apply for... Cause... I went to community college... for a while XD... and I don't have a 4 year degree (yet?) and a lot of jobs that earn you money, you "need" a degree. Some of them, I get are just weeding out factors, but now a days things are so computerized that I'm sure I'd be chucked out -_- Just for not having the right "requirements". Ugh. And its not that I'm lazy or whatever about getting a Bachelors... I just don't think its really worth the money XD Especially since I still wouldn't have a specific reason or major in mind to do it. I'd just be getting one that would look good to some stupid algorithm. (sigh)
And this isn't to say that you shouldn't be like me and stuff, I'm just pointing out something, mostly to myself, because this whole thing is just to get it off my chest. I still gotta do the dishes after this and I wanted to feel better by just writing this. So yeah.
But, I was looking at the Forbes Best 100 Companies List thing and a lot, well not a lot, but a good handful of the companies on there, are local enough to me that I could apply to them. And since I'm looking for stability and benefits and good pay and all, its not a bad thing to do. But... two sorts of "jobs" are my options, I feel. The more retail/grocery/service/hotel companies and the more scientific and business-y/technically boring but pays better companies. Ya get me? Like, on the retail side, that stuff seems pretty easy to get into and the job is easy, but it makes you wonder how far "up the ladder" can you go, ya know? Assuming that benefits are good for both types of jobs do I take the more (seemingly) fun and service and people job? Or the more paying (most likely) technical/boring on the surface job? And... even though it seems like I'd choose the former because its face value seems more fun at least in the short term, I can't help but wonder if I'm supposed to choose the latter. Like... I dunno. In a way, I can't see where a job that starts out in retail would end, over years and years ya know? Maybe manager of a store or manager of a region if you (I?) were good at the sort of thing. Or maybe I'd be in a completely different area of the business, one I can't imagine at the moment... And on the more technical side, it seems like I'd be doing my original job for a while, and eventually sort of make it to a more managerial position... again with the manager stuff, but I'm basing this off what I've heard "grown ups" say XD So... Ugh, when I think of both that way... I'd rather have neither -_- It just sounds boring. I'd rather be a cool stunt person XD But... I think that dream is fading for me :/ Not because I'm getting too old... but... because I just haven't put the effort in that I'd imagine it would take, and I don't really see myself doing it anytime soon...
Where was I going with this? I dunno XD But... ugh, I feel like I have to make the decision soon or something. Mostly, cause parents. And the fact that I don't need to go back to school in January... but if I keep the same job and stuff... I'll have time to go back to school, even its it just to take what I did this semester: tennis and weight training XD Which, I wouldn't mind doing, but at the same time, I want to start making more money and saving up for LIFE and stuff, ya know? I wouldn't mind taking just this one more semester "off" to do that, but... I feel like my parents will really scowl at me and give me an ultimatum in the summer or something 0_o Not like, kick me out... but I feel like they'd super, super, super, pressure me, ya know. Cause right now I don't have many excuses to not just get a full time job.... Ugh -_-
There is a sort of 3rd path, too, that I'm contemplating, but I need to do more "research" and that a full on trade job, such as welding. But, for that, I'd have to have an apprenticeship and stuff and those can take fro 2 to 5 years! Sheesh! Thinking about all that time just... is kinda weird XD I'll be... not 30... but a lot closer XD Hopefully I'd be married 0_o And then I also can't help but think that I'm coming at this whole job thing from the perspective that I need to support myself for my whole life. Which, I think is a good thing to prepare for, but most likely I will get married to a man with a pretty stable job himself so... Yeah... I dunno. I think a lot. But I like to think, because I like to plan and I like to think about what God's plan is for me XD XD
The only thing that popped out to me, maybe, while I was job searching is the thought that all my life I've essentially wanted to be a person that "saves people" somehow. Its really broad... but I've always thought about how to do that and what would work best for me and all... and one company on the Best list is a company that my mom wants me to apply for... and is kinda in the business of "saving people". And its pretty high on the list... so I couldn't help but think that maybe that was a clue? But, when I looked at all the jobs, man, they just seemed soooooo extremely boring! Plus, they want people who are in the process of getting degrees related to the job field... and I don't think I qualify... But, I guess it never hurts to try. So maybe I will. We shall see. Maybe, its just a thought to get my mind going on more way the phrase "saving people" can apply to jobs. Like, maybe this little epiphany is just a stepping stone, rather than an actual light bulb where I need to stop and actually build my life around it... That was a weird metaphor -_-
Anyway, I think that is all for now! It helps to just write this stuff and to just get it out, ya know? An this way, I also have it written down for me to look at later. Which I think is good. Ok, well, time to do the dishes!!!! Toodles! ^_^
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