If I Could Relive One Day

     One of the songs on the radio, I mostly listen to KLove or Kpop XD, talks about if you could go back and relive one day of your past of change one day (and I can't remember who sings it... I'll Google the lyrics-- Its Casting Crows "One Step Away") and anyway I've always wondered and thought about if there were a day that I could go back and change and do different somehow... And I think I basically came to the conclusion that "naaaah, I'll pass" XD
     I think that daunts me the most about questions like that are more worrying about what would happen instead of what did happen. Like, I'm all for a better outcome, but what if you changed something for the worse, ya know? Now, I've got a lot of thoughts on time travel that I won't get too much into, but to keep it simple I guess I just think that my life hasn't been all horrible and so there is nothing terrible that I would change. I guess sometimes I think of little things though, like maybe not saying something rude or maybe adding a compliment or an apology, but... I'd fear that anything bigger would change things a lot! If I got the choice to go back and change something I'd want to have multiple choice options to be all "Ok, if I did A then E will happen. If I did B then F will happen..." And so on XD Like, I wouldn't just want to go into it blind... like regular life XD I'd want some more insight into what would happen instead and how that would affect my life going forward. And maybe I watch too many movies, but sometimes its the little things that add up and make the biggest change! So what if you changed a little thing that became a bigger thing! :O So yeah, I've been thinking about this and pretty much just coming up blank. Though, I do suppose that it's because I've really had quite a comfortable life. I'm sure that if something tragic had happened in my past I'd want to change that, but then again, everything does happen for a reason. God has a plan and as long as it works out in the end, ain't got nothing to worry about XD And yet I still do. Like, to be honest, the thing I "worry" about the most is "finding love" and all that. I know I'm not alone, but its definitely that one thing that I think about the most... I'm pretty sure. I've had some... not good experiences with love in the past, but at the same time, I'm not sure I'd want to go back and change them, cause they've helped me change and grow and be a better person (hopefully) because of it. I've learned things from my past mistakes and them mistakes of others and I'm sure that bad experiences are just as helpful, if not more than good ones. You tend to really remember the bad ones, even if you don't want to. XD (Random, but I'm writing this at night and i have my front door open, and I'm sitting right in front of it... but its sorta creeping me out now... I'm gonna close it 0_o   Ok, I closed it.)
     Where was I? So yeah... and I've thought about other things that I did as a kid that sorta led me down paths I'd rather not have gone down, but at the same time I think that I've learned more from them than I would have had I not done them in the first place. I'd like to think I'd end up in the same place, or a better one, but its hard to tell. I will say that I'm thankful that God kept a careful watch of me all those years XD Like, I never did anything bad if you're wondering, but its more like... lets just say I wasn't the nicest person on the inside as a kid. I knew God, but I had more of a fear of Him than a loving relationship. But at the same time I was also a kinder individual than now... its rather perplexing actually. But, overall, I'd say that I think I needed those times to help mold me into who I am today. I'm weird. I dunno, I just hope I'm not the only one XD
     Now... anything else to say... I guess that I'm thankful for my life and that I have the privilege to not have anything so huge in my past that I would want to redo. However, for those that might consider a proposition such as this (I've been watching some Period drama stuff if I'm sounding fancier than usual) I might encourage you to look at your past as something to learn from and to take away the good and the bad and give it all to God. And if you haven't already, let God change your life now and let Him work in you to come to peace with your past and see that it was not all for naught. The past is the past after all, and its time to make a new future ^_^ If you want to, anyway, maybe your life is going great XD
     Till next time! Toodles and God Bless!