Shoppping! I'll give you a tip, just head for the sale/clearance rack XD

     Have you ever prepared to go in a store with certain items to purcahse is mind but then you either end up buying more than what you expected and/or not buying anything you intended? Yeah, that was me at Target today XD I went in to get some of the Dr. Scholl insert things to make your shoes more comfy (I need new work shoes, but I thought that some air cushions would help till I found a good pair) but then I looked over at the womens clothes and saw a bunch of cute stuff and ended up looking XD And I must say, there are a BUNCH of CUTE 70's inspired clothes for fall going on at Target right now. I tried on a few things but they ended up being a bit too revealing in the chest area than I would have liked. Meh. But then I saw their PJ onesie collection and they had Eeyore which is one of my friends absolute favorite, like, animal, ever XD And so I texted her and ended up getting it for her XD But I also must say that there are other super cool onesies at Target! Like, I was really impressed by their selection. I remember a few years ago, when the onesies were just coming back in style (for adults anyway) that they only had boring and simple colors, but now they have characters and other animals! :O So yeah XD I also ended up getting tights that were 3 bucks on Clearance, some baby wipes, and contact cleaner.
     Which reminds me, I pretty much only buy clothes on sale. And usually, not just sale, but Clearance. Like, I want it to be as possibly cheap as possible! Cause who doesn't like saving money? Plus, I know that most stuff is super over priced anyway, just so that the company can have a large profit margin. And even though Target has a lot of cute stuff, I wouldn't say that its the best quality, ya know.  Ya know what, Imma turn this into a shopping post XD
      My favorite things to buy are the high quality expensive items that are just out of season and therefore deeply discounted so that in the end, they are literally like 10 bucks when they were originally 50 to over 100. Lands End in Sears is a fav of mind cause they do that a lot. Their out of season stuff I can usually get for like 5 to 20 bucks a piece when usually everything is well over 50 dollars, and closer to 100 originally. Now, Lands End is a tad old style, but I'm a bit of an old soul XD Mostly, I go for their staple items, the types of items that don't go out of style, like a good pair pf pants or a simple dress or a colored button down shirt. And their stuff is really good quality! Like its thick and it doesn't just start to pull apart when you wash it. So I'd def rather spend 20 to 30 bucks on a discounted item from Lands End than a full priced item at Forever 21 or something.
     That being said, I still wander into shops like Forever 21 and H&M but I also go for their Clearance rack. Cause if I'm gonna pay 25 bucks for Lands End, you best bet I'm paying 5 for something of less quality. This goes for the other middle end department stores like JC Penny's or Macy's (anyone remember Mervyns? XD) or stuff like that. Though, I admit, there are certain brands that are really hard to find on sale that it is tempting to pay full price for really nice stuff. But, I manage to hold out. Items I'm more like to splurge on are shoes.
     One, I'm a shoe person. If I had the money to be a specific type of person, I'd be a shoe person XD But, I don't have the money XD Also, I got some pretty bad feet that need special orthotics and shoes XD Yup, I'm one of those. As much as I love heels and wedges and boots in the fall, I can really only wear heels for like an hour-- to church-- because my feet just can't take it. Especially because I see no point in wearing a heel lower than 4 inches XD I'm an extreme heel type of person XD But, alas, I have bad feet. SO I guess its sort of a blessing in disguise. But anyway, I'm more likely to spend more money on shoes because Imma be wearing those suckers all the time! I want them to be good quality and comfy and not fall apart so soon.
     Also, as I have gotten older, even though I look mostly at the sale and clearance sections, I understand the worth of some of them more expensive items and I can recognize quality better. Which is why I'd much rather buy some expensive shit on sale rather than just cheap shit to begin with. And a great place to find expensive shit on sale is Marshalls and TJ Maxx and sometimes Ross and stuff. And, now, even though they sell items at an already discounted rate, I still go to the clearance section XD But, I know that buy shopping there I am still pretty much getting good quality items. I also like to look at their snack/food section because they've got some of the expensive food snacks at a couple dollars off compared to Whole Foods and stuff. Yeah. I recently illuminated some other friends to the fact that Marshalls and them sell snacks and food XD They don't always have a wide selection, but occasionally I can find the stuff I really want for like half than at the grocery store.
     What else... You're probably surprised that I haven't mentioned thrift stores and stuff if I'm so obsessed with getting things cheap and its not that I don't like them... but honestly I just don't like wearing things that people have already worn... Which may sound really selfish or snobby (considering I also donate to things like thrift stores...) but... its just how I am. I don't mind if someone gives me clothes but I don't want t buy things that I don't know who wore them and what happened to them and stuff. Like, I'm still a bit of a germaphobe (I used to be much worse, maybe I'll talk about that later) and the thought of wearing what others have worn is just creepy to me. So if I do go to thrift stores, I look for things with the tags still on them and expensive brands that don't look that bad. And I find that often, I can find new things,  on super clearance for the same price, or less, than what I can find at thrift stores. I mean, you can't beat 1 dollar or 50 cents, but now a days thrift stores try to sell you stuff for like 10 bucks! What? Anyway...
    I'm getting tired and its getting late and I have work tomorrow too. So! See ya for  now and God Bless ya'll! Don't know who you are, but I'm praying for ya! ^_^

I'm Weird XP

     It's probably come across in my posts that I'm a bit weird. (Also, I always forget how to spell "weird". I wanna put the "i" first.) I mean, for starters, I'm in my 20's and I still watch Barbie movies but I also love vampires and werewolves and creepy things and Comic Book movies and LOTR and stuff like that. The Barbie thing is the main thing people are like, "whhaaaa??????" XD But whatever XD Oh, I'm waiting for the newest one! Barbie Starlight Adventure! :D
     Off the topic of Barbie (or not, cause I also love fashion-- that's the main reason I love Barbie XD) and on to other things of general weirdness. (Also, I'm writing this at 8:40 pm and I've been up since 3:30 am with only 9 hours of sleep in the past two days 0_o ...  So... if I sound tired, its cause I am) I was working yesterday and I was either saying something funny or making a funny face or dancing randomly cause she was all "you're so weird". But in like a good way. Like, she wasn't being mean, just simply saying that I am weird XD Cause I am. Lets not beat around the bush. Things that I do, that probably are "weird" is that I speak with different accents in regular conversation. Like... a lot of times I speak with a Southern-ish accent and lately I've been asked if I was Southern XD But the most South I've been in America is LA. I don't exactly know where I get it, but I think it sort of blossomed from when I used to imitate T-Bag from Prison Break. Cause I do a lot of voice impressions, that's also like "my thing" and so I think it comes from that. But, I go in an out of accents ALLLLLLL the time, I barely even notice it. But I usually do, cause I never really do anything without sort of... planning it out in a way. If that makes sense. I'm a very deliberate person, even if I don't seem like it. I also have a "black" voice... And I'm not being racist! Maybe a little stereotypical, not gonna lie, but I really love the way sassy black people sound. And I'm not the only one that does "the voice" and the hand gestures and the lingo. I know ya'll do to, so don't crucify me just because I admitted it out loud 0_o  So yeah, I do a lot of different voices. Weird thing #1.
     I make weird/ugly/creepy faces that I think are hilarious but other people find... hilarious, but also creepy XD I can't really describe, in words, the faces that I make, but lets just say, I actually spend time in front f the mirror doing my best to "perfect" these faces XD No joke, I do that. And I usually use my weird faces to let people know I'm acknowledging them. Like, you see your friend across the room, so you make a funny face type thing. I also do them for selfies or for other pictures. Cause who wants a normal smiling face? Huh? No one! Thats who! XD Jk, But yeah, I make funny faces, that sometimes I'm the only one who things they're funny XD Weird thing #2.
     I randomly dance; especially when I'm cold. The best way to get warm is to move your body, and so the best way to move your body, that doesn't take up a lot of room is to dance!!!! Now I'm not doing ballroom or anything complicated, I'm just doing little dorky dances XD And people, that aren't used to it, always look at me and ask "what are you doing?" and I explain XD And even when they are used to it, they look at me and laugh XD And I even dance when I'm not cold- like if I'm bored or something XD Weird thing #3.
     Evidently I say weird things... but I can't really give you an example cause its mostly other people that find what I say weird when I'm just talking XD And I'm usually not even trying to make a joke or something, its just what I say, I guess, can be odd. Eh. Sometimes I'm really blunt, sometimes I'm sarcastic, sometimes I'm trying to be a certain way, sometimes I say something naive or ask a question and sometimes I guess I just plain say weird stuff. Although, I don't say a lot of things. I have a pretty crazy imagination and I'll imagine things, and I'll want to say them, but I don't cause I still have a bit of a fear of being that person that no one listens to. Cause I used to be, and sometimes still am. So, I've learned to just keep it to myself if it doesn't seem interesting enough. I suppose that sounds sad, but I think we all do that. Otherwise we'd all be talking 24/7.
     I'm trying to think of something specifically I do, that is weird to be #5... Oh, I waterfall my water bottles. So I don't touch my mouth to the bottle. And if I have to, like for a glass, I have to wipe off the chapstick residue, cause I always wear chapstick. I have such dry lips despite all the water I drink. I know I have other weird little habbits that people ask me about, but I can't off hand remember right now.
     So! That's it for now! I'm weird! But I love it! Makes life more interesting! XD I love when I meet new people that are either just as weird as me (although, rarely do I find someone of my exact caliber) or that accept my weirdness. So thanks to the friends that I've known for years and love me for my weirdo self! *waves* and Thanks to the new friends I've made recently and those I shall meet in the future!
    (P.S. - This post was inspired by Shelby Genco's post on how we all need friendship. Even if I went off with it a bit XD It still made me think about my friends and why I have them and what makes me me and what I have to offer in friendship as well. Her blog is Mixed Whimsy ^_^ )
     (P.P.S- You have no idea how many times I had to correct the spelling of "weird".)

Goodness Gracious! I have been busy!

     So work blew up this past week and before that I was also super busy, so I'm just super sorry I haven't been able to post. I thought about it! But I just didn't have time. I barely had time to turn on my computer, and when I did I was watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire while eating breakfast XD So yeah, busy, busy, busy. This week is also super busy, but I have enough time to write this! :D
     Did I mention that I was rewatching the Harry Potter movies? I want to delve back into the world before Fantastic Beasts :) That looks super exciting!!! I should also reread the books, because the movies miss a lot of things, not as much in the first three... or was it just the first two... but I mean, those books are big! At the end, I'm not surprised you can't fit it all. And man, they get dark even in the 3rd one. Like... Harry Potter has some good laughs, but its overall a pretty dark series for kids. I was about to watch the 5th one, The Order of the Phoenix (who else has a hard time spelling "phoenix"???), when I put it in and was all... "This... doesn't look like the 5th one... this looks like the 6th" XD It turns out I grabbed the wrong one at the library! XD But I ordered the 5th one so it should be on its way soon :)
     Speaking of ordering things from the library, I've been thinking about materialism and stuff lately. How much stuff is too much? Like, usually I love buying DVDs and movies so that I can watch them whenever I want, without needing internet and all that, but I've been wondering if I need to... Clearly, no one needs to buy DVDs and watch movies, its not a necessity, but I've been thinking about mostly getting things from the library a much as possible. One, its free, I don't have to shell out 20 to 30 bucks for something. Two, its not technically free, my taxes are paying for it but its better than 20 plus bucks. Three DVDs are turning into Blu Ray and Blu Ray is turning into 4k... Geez its so annoying to "keep up" with technology. Four, I feel sorta guilty about spending money on movies than like giving to charity or doing something more "responsible". And its not like I don't give to charity, I do, but I always feel like I should give more. Like its never enough. Which, in a way its  not. money and things will only get people so far, everyone needs God in their lives to make it complete. But, still I can't help but think I should sell more of my stuff, give away more of my stuff (one so that I have less to clean and make a mess of), so that others who need it more can have them. But then I wonder whats the best way to get my stuff or my money to the people who need it ya know? How can I tell who needs it the most and who is gonna use it the best? These are the things that I wonder about XD and if anyone had any thoughts, you are more than welcome to comment ^_^
I do wish I could do a sort of garage sale, though, and raise money for charity, and just plain get rid of stuff. But i'm like... too lazy. I'd rather someone I know host it and I just give my stuff for them to sell XD I'm so lazy. And I know there are a ton of apps now a day for this type of stuff, but I hate making accounts and having sites ask for permission for so many things. Like, ugh. I know I'm a paranoid granny, but I'd be more inclined to get Snapchat if it wasn't so... invasive. Like google isn't already? But I've had this account for years. The reason I just did a blogger rather than another site was cause I didn't have to make another account. Its already on the YT/Google account, so eh.
     Where am I going with this...? Not entirely sure, its just a stream of consciousness. But man, it takes longer to type than to think it XD  Well, it late and I want to get to bed soonish. So toodles for noe!!! ^_^

If I Could Relive One Day

     One of the songs on the radio, I mostly listen to KLove or Kpop XD, talks about if you could go back and relive one day of your past of change one day (and I can't remember who sings it... I'll Google the lyrics-- Its Casting Crows "One Step Away") and anyway I've always wondered and thought about if there were a day that I could go back and change and do different somehow... And I think I basically came to the conclusion that "naaaah, I'll pass" XD
     I think that daunts me the most about questions like that are more worrying about what would happen instead of what did happen. Like, I'm all for a better outcome, but what if you changed something for the worse, ya know? Now, I've got a lot of thoughts on time travel that I won't get too much into, but to keep it simple I guess I just think that my life hasn't been all horrible and so there is nothing terrible that I would change. I guess sometimes I think of little things though, like maybe not saying something rude or maybe adding a compliment or an apology, but... I'd fear that anything bigger would change things a lot! If I got the choice to go back and change something I'd want to have multiple choice options to be all "Ok, if I did A then E will happen. If I did B then F will happen..." And so on XD Like, I wouldn't just want to go into it blind... like regular life XD I'd want some more insight into what would happen instead and how that would affect my life going forward. And maybe I watch too many movies, but sometimes its the little things that add up and make the biggest change! So what if you changed a little thing that became a bigger thing! :O So yeah, I've been thinking about this and pretty much just coming up blank. Though, I do suppose that it's because I've really had quite a comfortable life. I'm sure that if something tragic had happened in my past I'd want to change that, but then again, everything does happen for a reason. God has a plan and as long as it works out in the end, ain't got nothing to worry about XD And yet I still do. Like, to be honest, the thing I "worry" about the most is "finding love" and all that. I know I'm not alone, but its definitely that one thing that I think about the most... I'm pretty sure. I've had some... not good experiences with love in the past, but at the same time, I'm not sure I'd want to go back and change them, cause they've helped me change and grow and be a better person (hopefully) because of it. I've learned things from my past mistakes and them mistakes of others and I'm sure that bad experiences are just as helpful, if not more than good ones. You tend to really remember the bad ones, even if you don't want to. XD (Random, but I'm writing this at night and i have my front door open, and I'm sitting right in front of it... but its sorta creeping me out now... I'm gonna close it 0_o   Ok, I closed it.)
     Where was I? So yeah... and I've thought about other things that I did as a kid that sorta led me down paths I'd rather not have gone down, but at the same time I think that I've learned more from them than I would have had I not done them in the first place. I'd like to think I'd end up in the same place, or a better one, but its hard to tell. I will say that I'm thankful that God kept a careful watch of me all those years XD Like, I never did anything bad if you're wondering, but its more like... lets just say I wasn't the nicest person on the inside as a kid. I knew God, but I had more of a fear of Him than a loving relationship. But at the same time I was also a kinder individual than now... its rather perplexing actually. But, overall, I'd say that I think I needed those times to help mold me into who I am today. I'm weird. I dunno, I just hope I'm not the only one XD
     Now... anything else to say... I guess that I'm thankful for my life and that I have the privilege to not have anything so huge in my past that I would want to redo. However, for those that might consider a proposition such as this (I've been watching some Period drama stuff if I'm sounding fancier than usual) I might encourage you to look at your past as something to learn from and to take away the good and the bad and give it all to God. And if you haven't already, let God change your life now and let Him work in you to come to peace with your past and see that it was not all for naught. The past is the past after all, and its time to make a new future ^_^ If you want to, anyway, maybe your life is going great XD
     Till next time! Toodles and God Bless!

LOTR tag/ Dear anyone who worked on LOTR and The Hobbit :)

So, I wanted to write something, I’ve been wanting to but not finding the actual push or an amazing idea to write about so I went searching for more “tag” questions and I found a little Lord of the Rings tag so I thought I’d do that one XD Cause it you don’t know already, I Love LOTR and its my fav cinematic universe.

1. How did you discover Lord of the Rings?

Sometimes I actually forget my first encounter with LOTR and I think that I just saw the Fellowship when it came out, but actually, my grandparents had one of the animated movies, the one that had all three books into one animated feature, not the ones where its all broken up and the hobbits looks all weird and stuff. Actually I just found out that it’s the 1978 version and its based on The Fellowship and the first half of The Two Towers… So I dunno, its literally been like at least 15 years since I’ve seen it. Probably more like 17 XD But I also watched a few clips and thought it looked a lot like live action and then I read that it was shot in live action and then was animated over. Which I think is pretty cool. I think it also made for a better and more realistic style and definitely better movements.  But yeah, I watched that before the live action movies came out and then when they did I was all “Hey, I’ve seen that!” And even as the animated version, it was one of my favs : ) I knew quality even back then XD

2. Have you read the books?

Now, I have admitted this before, I have not read the books… BUT! I will! I really will one day soon! I feel quite ashamed that I’m such a huge fan but I haven’t read the books…  Dx

3. Did you watch the movies or read the books first?

Clearly, since I haven’t read the books, I saw the movies first XD

4. Have you read The Hobbit?

I’ve read half The Hobbit… I started it, but I haven’t finished it yet x”D But I will! I promise I will!

5. Who is your favorite character?

Well, I have a few, and all for different reasons and I had different ones at different stages in my life. As a kid, my favorite was Frodo. Come on, Elijah Wood was adorable! Then I moved on to Legolas, because, come on back then Orlando Bloom was hot. Like Frodo was cute, but Legolas was hot. XD But I always loved Gimli for his comedy XD Then, as I got older and I watched all the behind the scenes and why characters were the way they were and more about their motivations and stuff I really liked Sam and Gandalf. Sam is like… the reason Frodo could even do the quest. And Gandalf is like the whole catalyst in the first place, plus he’s a giant moral high ground and he is the wisdom and the light and all that. Gandalf and Sam have my favorite lines in all the movies and I think they are both from The Two Towers.

“Frodo: I can't do this, Sam.

Sam: I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.

Frodo: What are we holding onto, Sam?

Sam: That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo... and it's worth fighting for"

And for Gandalf I really like when he has this moment with Pippin in The Return of the King, actually, not both in TT.

“Pippin: I didn't think it would end this way.

Gandalf: End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path... One that we all must take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass... And then you see it.

Pippin: What? Gandalf?... See what?

Gandalf: White shores... and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise.

Pippin: [smiling] Well, that isn't so bad.

Gandalf: [softly] No... No it isn't.”

And I really like that cause I see the Christianity in the background ya know : ) And same with Sam’s, I see Tolkien and his faith hovering in the background.

Oh! And I forgot that I still love Merry and Pippin for their comedy as well and how they grow throughout their journey and I love Arwen because she’s that character all full of pure hope (plus, she has long hair and I always wanted my hair to look like hers xD) And… Oh! I love Treebeard too! Cause, hello, its fricken Treebeard XD  So… basically I have a lot of favs—OMG, I forgot Gollum! Well… I don’t love Gollum so much as… you just feel for his character and its quite easy to relate to him if you’ve had any… darkness I suppose to you. But overall I’d say that Sam and Gandalf are my fav for their character, but Legolas is such a badass, soooooo… Yeah XP And also, shoutout to Thranduil in The Hobbit films. Lee Pace was just sooooo gorgeous as Thranduil! Like, literally he was and is the most gorgeous being I have ever seen on the screen and in real life. Like, Thranduil was perfection in my eyes. At least physically, his personality was an asshole XD but he gets better XD

6. Do you know any Elvish or Dwarvish?
Ummm… I know that friend is “melon” XD But other than that I can imitate what they say but I haven’t taken the time to actually learn any. I used to, actually, read about the Elvish language because I did want to speak it, but I’m better when I learn from someone, not just a book. But I’d love to be able to ^_^

7. Which is your favorite book/film?

Ummm… this is a hard one. Honestly I count them all as one. To me, its one film, just in three parts XD And there are parts within the parts that I like better but overall I don’t think I can choose just one. I love all the battles though. Especially Helms Deep and The Battle of the Pelennor Fields… But I also love the stuff in Hobbitton and the music from Hobbitton. But then I love the Elves! I love Rivendell, although I don’t care for Lothlorien as much just because its not as colorful. I really like color : ) Ummm… But yeah, I honestly just lump it all into one movie xD But I do like LOTR better than The Hobbit films. But like I said, Thranduil is just gorgeous beyond words. Truly. He makes those movies for me xD Of course, Martin Freeman ad Bilbo and Richard Artmitage as Thorin are amazing too, but mmmm Thranduil xD

8. How do you feel about the movie adaptations of the books?

Ummm, well since I didn’t read the books yet, I don’t think I’m as qualified to answer this, but I’m just glad they did ^_^ All the animated ones and the live action.

9. What race would you be?

ELF! Hands down I would be an elf!!!! I’d be a badass Elf too, in the vein of Legolas and Tauriel. I love Arwen, but I love being a badass too XD She’s cool, though.

Sometimes I think I’d like to be a Hobbit though, because they seem like they lead hearty lives and really live life to the fullest ya know : )

10. How has Lord of the Rings affected your life?

I was about to mention this in the answer for 8, but it goes with this one better xD My life… would be sooooo different. Like, it sounds cheesy and cliché, but LOTR has literally changed my life. I don’t think I’d be the person I am today if they didn’t exist or if I had not seen the movies. Like… as a kid, I just loved the adventure and the good looking actors XD but as I grew up I saw the heroism in the story and in the characters and I wanted to be like them. I wanted to be as kind and loyal as Sam and as wise as Gandalf and as kingly as Aragorn and as badass as Legolas. I actually remember the point in my life when I was rewatching the movies, I was in The Two Towers where Sam says the whole things about not giving up hope and fighting for what good, and I remember that I cried. I literally cried because I had a sort of epiphany moment for several reasons and it was one of the times that the chink in my armor began to fall away. Maybe one day I’ll go a bit into that, cause I was actually thinking about how I’ve changed over the years, especially over the past two years… but we’ll see. But yeah, I just. These movies have changed my life and when I see, also the hard work and complete dedication that was put into making the movies, it movies me even more and I wish I could have been old enough to be a part of making them! Watching all the extras and interviews really made me feel a part of the world even more and plus it just looked so fun to make!

If anyone who was a part of LOTR or The Hobbit or both ever happens to read this, I just want to say “Thank You from the bottom of my heart.” I’ll probably never meet anyone but I just want to say that these movies have impacted my life more than you can imagine and I will always cherish them and the work that you put into them and I will continue to marathon them for the rest of my life. I wish I could have been a part of the process somehow and I hope that you had fun : ) I also hope that one day we can truly return to Middle Earth, perhaps at the 25 year mark (don’t get me started on that 800 buck thing Warner is coming out with) and get to see even more of your hard work. So, thank you Tolkien, thank you Jackson, Boyens, and Walsh, thank you cast and crew and Allan Lee and John Howe. Thank you for bringing Middle Earth to life because it helped me to truly come to life as well. Oh, and a special thank you to Andy Serkis for giving Gollum a voice and for me being able to always freak my friends out XD And A big thank you to Lee Pace for being a gorgeous Thranduil. And omg, I almost forgot Howard Shore! LOTR is my fav ever soundtrack and score and its just always so beautiful to me and I love it <3 May Middle Earth always live on, on the page, on the screen and in our  hearts!