A couple days ago I started a post titled "Not a "Nice" Girl" in reference to me and how I've been finding more Christian YTbers and how all the girls I watch are just really nice. Like, so super nice and I couldn't help but look at myself and just think "wow, I am not that nice". Like, its true, I've never been been that person that just exudes niceness. I think. XD Maybe other people think I'm nice but, that's where I decided to change this post a bit.
I don't think I'm particularly a "nice girl". However, as I was viewing the people that I work with this week, I sorta came to realize that I'm probably "nicer" than I think I am. Or at least, I'm not as "not nice" as other people I know. And I'm not like trying to complain about other people now, I guess I was just thinking worse of myself from the beginning when I should have realized the awesome things about me too.
I brought this whole "not a nice girl" concept up to one of my guy friends and he said that I was "thoughtful". And I took that in for a moment and came to realize that "thoughtful" is a pretty nice thing. And I agree, I am thoughtful XD Way to keep my ego out of it. But, I really try to take my time to think about what I can do for other people and how best to serve others and stuff. I'm thoughtful. But honestly, I hadn't thought of myself in that way before he actually said it and it was then that I thought of this post and how I had to slightly change it XD Then I went to work and stuff and I saw how many other people were being and I decided that maybe I was actually overall "nicer" than I had originally thought I was.
I'd say this though. (Sorry if this is a little over the place) I can be "nice". There is a part of me that it really nice, I'd say. And its not artificial, it comes from a place where I always ask myself stuff like "what would Jesus do". And when I ask myself that, I'm usually quite nice, especially to people that I don't know XD Cause, ya know, I wanna make a good impression. I'd much rather be known as nice than a bitch. But I can be bitchy too. Don't get me wrong, but I'm more likely to be nice when I meet people for the first time. But aren't we all? Don't we all want to get off on the best foot? I'd say then, that the more one gets to know me, the more... sort of... sassy I can get. And not like bad sassy, but just, I'll say whats really on my mind and I'll be honest but I won't be.. as timid? Like, you know when you say something to a group of people you don't know, and you're honest but you're also sorta hesitant? Like that... sorta. Anyway, its not like I change once you get to know me, but I'm just more open and more fun than just strictly nice. If you get what I mean.
So yeah, I'm hoping that this is making sense XD Have I said all that I want to say? Uhhhhh... So overall, I guess originally I was gonna be a little more... negative about myself. I was comparing myself to these "nice girls" on the internet and just thinking "wow, I am soooo not that nice". But, now I realize there isn't anything actually bad with that, cause even though I'm not a "nice girl" and exuding cream and sugar all the time, I still do my best to be a good Christian and to treat people with respect and to do the Godly thing. If I happen to be nice, then that's a plus. I just hope I'm never rude. I don't want to be rude, but I still want to be honest and say what's right. Ya'll feel me? XD
So yeah, I guess to sum it up, I'm not a straight up "nice girl" but I am pretty thoughtful and I shouldn't think the worst of myself. And neither should you! Be honest with yourself and how you treat others and maybe if you're curious ask your friends to describe you or something. And I guess that you don't have to be a "nice girl/boy" to do nice things. Ya know. But if you are a nice person, like truly nice all the time, stay that way! We need more people like you to exude niceness! Cause I for one want to be nicer. But I still wanna be at least a little sassy ;)
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