Dream Jobs! :D

     So I got back from vacation, well, I say "vacation" but its summer vacation (technically sorta...) and I guess what I mean is I got back from a trip during vacation... Yes? Anyway, I went to the Philippines, I already said this, and I was there for a month, already said that. But what I was thinking while I was there, besides that I was hot and annoyed almost all the time (yeah... weather does that to me), was that "when I get back... what am I gonna do?" 0_o I don't think I've actually divulged where exactly I am in life right now, but I figure, eh, why not.
     So basically, out of high school I went to a community college, and so I'm done with all that. I got all the basics out of the way, plus I did stuff for fun and I have two Associate degrees, one in Art History (cause I found that I ended up liking it) and one in Natural Science and Math (cause by the time I was done with my general requirements I had most of this one covered already). I also have a job, a part time job that is almost a full time job when its really busy (I'm "on call"). But, still, when people ask me "what are you doing?" or "what are you gonna be?" I'm like "uhhhh... well this is what I've done and I still don't exactly know where its/God leading me". And I feel a little more pressure this year just because I'm sorta out of excuses to keep going to the JC but I don't have a steady job... I know I'm not the only out there, a lot of my friends or people I know are really in similar boats, but... its still challenging, it still makes you wonder and plead to God "just tell me where to go and what to do! step by step please" XD Yeah, I've said that many times. I'm that person that, as much as I like telling others what to do, I still love when others lay certain things out for me and give me step-by-step instructions. Its just easier that way, or so it seems. And so yeah, thats where I am, or that's where I feel I am: this sort of limbo between school and work and what do I do next exactly?
     So, I thought I'd take the time to make a list of what I wanted to be when I grew up, when I was little. Well, not just when I was little, up until now and stuff, because I'm thinking that I might get some ideas as to "where to go from here" XD
     So, these might not be in order, but I'll do my best. I know that when I was little I wanted to be, sort of non-traditional things. Well, even now I don't want to be "traditional" things. So, for example, I wanted to be a gymnast and and ice skater because those were the coolest sports in the Olympics. They were very pretty and athletic and I watched a lot as a kid. Honestly, those were my main two XD And then I also wanted to be a vampire, a werewolf, a mermaid, an elf, a fairy... mythical creatures. I also wanted to have superpowers and be able to save people. Actually, I still want that XD It doesn't help that there are all these Superhero movies now-- I want to help and save people! Actually, that's one thing I have noticed, I've always wanted to help people, save people and I've been trying to think of jobs that I could fulfill something like that, even if its not as obvious as being a police officer or a firefighter or something like that. Also I;ve thought about that more recently, like when I was younger it was purely about being a superhero and having cool powers XD
     What else... Oh! I wanted to be a ninja too! And a model, thank you Tyra! What else... Can you see a theme here though? I've never wanted to be anything normal like a doctor or nurse (even though I'm Filipino) or a teacher or accountant or electrician or farmer or even an actress. I've wanted to be a voice actor, but I've never really wanted to be the star or really famous. I just like making funny voices. But, the theme I noticed, other than non-normal jobs, is that I liked physical jobs, athletic ones that I would always be in shape and be moving. I've always hated the idea of sitting at a desk all day, I really don't think I could do that, I get bored like that. As long as I can remember, I've always wanted to do very active jobs.
     Like I said, though, its only more recently that I've tried to branch out XD In high school, because I got into kpop I wanted to be a dancer or something Kpop-y. Then I wanted to learn Korean (and before I was learning Japanese, but I'm still not anywhere near good at it) but I had no idea what I wanted to do with that. I've always been good at languages so people suggested being an interpreter or something, but I still always thought that wasn't exciting enough. So, coming out of high school, my interests were mainly in languages, dancing, and being a stunt woman. I don't know if I've said that before on here, but for a long time, and I still want to, but its not as... fervent in me, I wanted to be a stuntwoman. Again, a physical job, but I figured that it was gonna be as close to a ninja as I could get! XD Plus, i've always loved movies and the making of movies and the stunts are always my fav. I also do martial arts, so I thought it would be a good springboard. I've not given up on it entirely yet... but its not as important because, to be honest, I had ulterior motives. Just like in learning Korean, my goal would have been to get into the kpop world and meet korean celebs and all that (possible even fall in love and marry one??? XP). My goal for stunts... embarrassing to say... was quite similar. I'd be very interested in meeting good looking celebs and all that and possibly falling in love and marrying someone XD So yeah... once I was honest with  myself about that, I sorta gave them both up because... I dunno, I know that goals like that drive some people, but it didn't make me the best version of myself. Goals like that just make me more selfish and less of a person that, I think, God would approve of.
     So, after I sorta gave those things up, which was a few years ago, pretty recently, honestly, I tried to think a little more outside my box. Which was when I found Art History. I've always loved history and learning about how things are made and why, so I figured that maybe I could be some sort of tourist guide or something, maybe be able to travel too (and meet a man along the way... XP Do you see another theme???)... So yeah... I still haven't totally tossed that one out... but I mostly came up with that one so that I could tell people something and seem like I had a plan for taking so many classes... -_-
     I also started thinking about other jobs that could fall under "saving people" jobs. So lately I've been thinking if I'd like o pursue any criminal justice or EMT stuff... But... I dunno, its interesting to me, and I could sorta see myself doing it... but it just doesn't quite seem right. Like, when I think about it, it doesn't seem like that's what God is calling me to do, it doesn't light up like other ideas have. But, who knows, I haven't crossed it out yet.
     Another thing I've thought of is writing. I used to write more, and with this blog I'm trying to rekindle it again, but I've always thought that no matter what else I do, I could so writing on the side.
     Going along with police and firefighter, I've thought about government work. I think the only reason I've thought about government work, though is because movies make it look so cool to be like a secret agent and all that. XD That's literally what I'd want to do, too. But if I had a job like that, I'd basically give up  my life for it, cause just like in the movies, I'm sure that if you had a dangerous job and a family, it just... takes it toll, plus they could get hurt. I guess its the same with being a cop... but I dunno, I feel like being a cop is more... just different, well maybe not anymore. It might be more dangerous 0_o But still. Then again, I'm that really optimistic person that 'd be all "if there's a will there's a way" plus "God will provide!" XD So, I'm sure I'd find a way to make it all work.
     Ok! Side note, I'm contunuing this post like a week later cause I was just lazy about writing... despite having a lot of ideas. Ugh. I need to get back on the train and stop being lazy! But I think I'm just gonna wrap it up anyway.
     Oh! I remembered that, kinda going along with the stunt woman thing, and loving movies, I'd sorta love to be like a movie... reviewer person. I watch a fair amount of movie news and movie channels on YT and I'd love to be able to be someone like that, that gets to talk about movies and debate and scheme and all that stuff :)
     But alas, I think... for now I'll be more practical. Cause I always have this practical side that says "go for a stable job that earns good so that you can invest in your hobbies and have fun that way". And the stable job that I've thought about for a while is welding, or something along those lines of a blue collar job that earns well but most kids now a days don't even think of.  In a way, though, I sorta feel like I'm giving up on myself though... Like if I really tried for a more "exciting" job I'd do well... but at the same time I like having the stability of a job that is in super demand, ya know? So, I'll be praying a whole lot more on this, and please, if you read this and think "this gurl needs help", please, go ahead and pray for me too XD Cause I'd love for God to just give me a yellow brick road... but I have a feeling thats not exactly going to happen... So yeah... I just wanted to write this to remind myself of things I wanted to be so that maybe I could get some insight into myself? I dunno. XD I dunno  if it helped, but... maybe one day it'll just click :)
      Until then, I'd say... to all those people out there, not to "follow your dreams", I sorta hate that saying... Its too vague. But I'd say to always pray and listen to God and to go where He leads you. I'd also say that, I don't think that God is gonna plop you into a job/career that you totally hate. I think that if you're honest with yourself and what your interests are, that God will lead you to something that you can still be happy in, even if its not your "dream job". Cause, remember, you still need to pay the bills and take care of a family (if you have a family XD ). But yeah, and try not to be too discouraged if you end up in a place that you never thought you'd be. As long as you're doing your best to live by His words, I think you'll end up in a good place and things will probably turn out better than you expected in the first place. But! It probably won't just happen, you probably have to put some work into it first.

     Ok , this is getting really long XD So I'll sign off for now. Toodles! ^_^

Movie Talk

 These two aren't as bad XD

So I was thinking about The Chronicles of Narnia. I haven’t read the books, though I am meaning to now, but just in case what I’m thinking about is already described in the book, I’m just saying XD But If in the first movie, the kids spent like 15 years in Narnia but it was only a few hours in Earth time, but then 1 year on earth was 1300 in Narnia in the second movie and then in the third movie… its 3 years later in Narnia… but I’m not sure how much time has officially passed on Earth. Seems like its still in the War, but the actors are so much older XD So… lets say, that its within a year? Or maybe another year? So why is that only 3 years in Narnia that time when before it was 1300?! So what I was thinking, is that there is no set time difference, its just that Aslan calls the Pevensies when there are needed in Narnia and when they need Narnia. So, it doesn’t matter what the time difference is, it just matters that they are both in need of each other.

Well, that was a short post XD But I can’t think of anything else to say on the topic, other than that’s what I figured out. I mean, Aslan is Jesus, basically, and Jesus is God and therefore all powerful, so He can do what He wants with the timelines XD

So it’s the final week! Well, I have… like 5 more days… but still. I’m ready to go home. The other day was SOOOOO HOT I was just done, like that was def the hottest day and I did not enjoy that. I am not happy when I’m hot and I can’t cool down. I like the cool weather much better and when I’m unintentionally hot, and for no reason other than its hot, I get upset really fast and its just better if I don’t talk, cause it aint gonna be good. I think its funny in a way though, all my cousins seem pretty… chill, I’ve never seen them get in fights, though I think I’ve seen how one can start… but still, I think I’m the most… outspoken probably. If I’m not happy, everyone pretty much knows it. Especially if I have no reason to keep it hidden. Like, if I’m at work or something, then yeah, it doesn’t matter, I gotta do my job, but when I ain getting paid to be nice, and its hot as hell it seems, I ain’t gonna be nicey-nicey. I’m just not. That’s not the way I work XD lol -_- But seriously. I keep it real. But yeah, I went through the videos and pics on my computer cause I woke up late and I wasn’t tired. I’m still not tired… but I figure, its like midnight, I should probably start getting ready. I don’t have to wake up early though, which is nice. Oh! I saw Ghostbusters today, and I gotta say, I liked it. It’s not my fav comedy, but it was pretty good and I was consistently laughing and chuckling throughout the whole thing, so I consider that a win. It wasn’t perfect, like I thought that some jokes got kinda stale after a while, like the Kevin being dumb thing… it was just sorta odd… and Kate Mckinnon’s character… was weird… 0_o I’ve never seen the original Ghostbusters, I know, so maybe there is a character like her’s in the original, but she was the weirdest to me… I like the others though. Sometimes I editing and the flow of the movie was a little off too, but I’m sure most people wouldn’t actually notice. Oh, I also saw Tarzan like a week ago or something too and I liked that. I liked that better, but I’m more of an action person anyway. When watching Tarzan, my Cinema Sins brain was on though XD I kept saying things like “ehhhhh not sure it’d work that way in real life” XD Well, for now I shall say Toodles! 

Add on: I saw Ghostbusters for a second time and though I wasn't as irritated with "Kevin" the second time, I felt like I noticed more... editing stuff. Like, it was a kinda choppy, the jokes and the transitions were super smooth and you could tell that there was stuff left out, for whatever reason. But I do really like the new music they made for the movie. I think there was some Fall Out Boy? And overall I still enjoyed and still chuckled the second time. Though I saw it with more people, like more people in the theater and... There was never a moment when everyone laughed out loud. I dunno if it was a cultural thing or what, but I guess that not everyone liked it as much as I did XD

I forgot to mention that I love Mangosteen

      More from The Philippines. Dun Dun Dun!

I just took a shower. A cold shower and I haven’t written in a while, because I turned my computer on like a week ago, and it was all “we’ve detected a problem with the cooling fan” or something. -_- So I’ve been afraid to turn on my computer… But, I figure that if I only use it for like 30 min at a time with minimal use, it should last x”D Hopefully! I’m still in the Philippines, it will be a while before I go home.  But, this honestly probably wont go up till I’m back. Soooooo… Yeah. What have I done here? Oh! I’ve only had it once so far, but I really like Yellow Cab Pizza here :D  Best thing I ate here so far! XD is it bad that I’m not the biggest fan of Filipino food? I dunno, Its not my fav. Its quite fatty and oily and sweet and I don’t really like that. What do I like? I like fried fish. Lumpia is ok but not my fav. I like the fruit here, like mangoes!!!! I’ve eaten a lot of mangoes here. I’ve also tried mangosteen, which is a superfood thing. Its really good for you, but the part you eat is really slimy and gross feeling. What else? My family here makes soy milk and soy products, and I really like their chocolate soy milk. I like fried chicken here too XD then again, I think its pretty hard to mess up fried chicken. I wanted to buy some like chicken nuggets and stuff, but literally like everything frozen or pre-prepared has MSG or “flavor enhancers” -_- I don’t want that in my food. Needless to say I didn’t buy them. Overall, I’d say that Filipino food really isn’t the healthiest. But there are some good stuff. The… scenery of the Philippines is also weird… Like. When I first came and drove from the airport to the house, I was… how do I put this nicely…  not happy, buy surprised by what I saw. There is a lot of poverty here and a lot of stuff is old and seems to have never been renovated and there are infrastructure problems and people all around are used to it so I don’t think they really think about change. But I dunno, I haven’t asked. But, the new president, he may change things. It will be interesting to see, really.

Things that bother me here, besides the heat and the bugs and stuff, is the driving and the… rubbish on the road and everywhere. Like, have you ever seen broken glass in the road and gathered that there was an accident but no one cleaned up the glass? Its like that here, except that its not just glass, its cement and gravel and plants and garbage and random stuff. Its  not everywhere, but its still there and its… one not pretty to look at and also not sanitary. Oh! Also bathrooms, they really bother me here too. But newer places have better bathrooms. Basically, though, you can tell who has money and who doesn’t in the Philippines. Which is really sad and The Philippines isn’t the only country like it. I haven’t been to other “developing countries” (I think that the PC term -_-) but I assume that its similar really.

Well, I know this was a bit of a downer post, but I ain’t gonna be all “Oh Its great here!” Cause, its not. Honestly, I’m really glad and grateful that I do live where I do. I don’t mind visiting the Philippines but unless some major change happens, fairly quickly, I won’t be retiring here or anything. 

Add on: On the drive back home from the airport my mom was all "I can feel the change there." And she was referring to the new President who is super strict and everyone hopes he's gonna get stuff done. So, maybe stuff will happen relatively fast! :) This was about the time that I was already always annoyed because of the heat, so I wasn't the happiest camper. Now that I'm back home, I suppose I'm not as harsh. But I didn't want to change anything, because at that time, that was what I felt. Anyway, I got like two more I think. What should I call this... ? Well, you'll know soon enough! Or by the time I post it XD

I'm Not Dead! :D

      Makes me think of Newsboys and their song "God's not dead" XD
      Anyway, I've been on vacation, though I've been on vacation longer than I've been away from this thang cause I just scheduled things to go up XD So... for this one I'm just gonna copy and paste some stuff I wrote-- it's not a lot, however-- and then start back up again as usual. So lets go back in time! To like, almost a month ago!
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Wassup!!!!!!! How’s it going? I dunno when this is actually going to go up, but it feels good to write J Its been a few days XD And I’m in the Philippines and yeah, def, at first, it’s a bit of a culture shock. First the weather, then the language, then the environment and stuff, and just wow, its so different from the US. My goal, though, and I just keep praying, is to not get bit. Although… I may already have one… but I’m trying really hard to reapply bug spray and to be vigilant and stay indoors and all that. I just really, really, really, do not want to get bit and be all itchy and stuff. Please dear Lord!!!! I’d rather it be hotter and more humid as long as I didn’t get bit or stung or anything like that. I will be immensely happy! :D

Things have changed since the last time I was hear though. Its… maybe better than I remember. Or maybe I’m not as critical… Dunno. Also, OMG I just turned on my music!!! Its’amazing! All this time and I’ve really only heard one song, the Japanese version of Kara’s “Mister”, that I know and like. I’ve been paranoid to turn on my computer because I couldn’t get the whole charging/plug thing  to work over here until now! So now I’m not afraid to drain my battery XD Cause I can recharge it now! Hooray!!!! I can also recharge my phone, which, thankfully is a Galaxy 5 so I have ultra power saving mode and I made it last for like four days on one charge XD but now I got it back to 100% Woohoo! And it rained today so its not as hot. Still, hot, even more humid, but it probably knocked a few degrees off. Overall, not a bad day today. Although it was a little too complicated to get my phone working over here, so I just won’t use it, basically. I can get it to go to WiFi, but that won’t be a lot. So, depending on when this goes up, and to friends that read this, XD I’m alive!! I’m tired though. It’s evening and I still haven’t fully adjusted.

Am I the only one that ponders the exact times that “morning”, “afternoon” and “evening”, and “night” are? Well, I think morning is pretty standard. Its before noon aka 12 pm. Then I say that the afternoon is 12:01 through 4:59 pm. I think that 5 is the start of “evening”, and that it goes to about 6:30… maybe 6:59. But I def think that 7 is already night. Wait.. now that I think about it though… Maybe the evening is still til 7. I def think that Night is solidly at 8 though. 8 is a good time for “night”. But I’m a little indecisive about 7- 8 XD

Well, I think I’ll leave it at this for now! Toodles! ^_^

From one thing to another

     Are you ever on YT and you feel like there is nothing new to watch? Or even if there is, you don't want to watch it? XD That's almost where I am now. I feel like, besides a few videos, there isn't a lot for me to watch that I'm interested in. Then again, I'm sleepy and want to go to bed, so it might just be me... trying to get me to go to sleep XD
     Speaking of sleep, I, like, LOVE sleeping. Like I really do! I really love sleeping and eating and sleeping more and eating. XD And i love my bed! Its a regular bed but then I've got one of those... memory foam topper things on it. It used to be my gramma's... but then she died... 0_o is that too morbid? Anyway! x"D
     Speaking of my gramma, do you guys have a relative that died when you were young and you wonder what it would be like to have them around when you're older. I thought about that recently... and I sorta think that... things would have been better. Not me me directly, but for my grandpa. Gma dying was sort of... the worst thing that could have happened to him. (Am I allowed to talk about this? its the night. it makes you say things you didn't think you would otherwise; but I think i'm being vague enough XD ) He's still around though, its not like he died. But, it would definitely be muuuuuch different, I hope, if she were alive. For selfish reasons, I'd just want to eat her cooking again XD my mom could never recreate her salmon-loaf. And we still can't get her cookie recipes right, or her spaghetti recipe. We get close, but not close enough.
     I already talked about how I don't cook  much XD but hopefully one day I will learn to cook and have my own garden and grow a lot of my food! :D I'd love that! I'd love to be as self sustaining as possible and to live a relatively waste-free life. I'll probably never be vegan and stuff, cause I really like meat, but I want to do my best to keep this planet going. :)   I also would like to learn how to sew and make my own clothes. I've always loved fashion and drawing clothes and imagining clothes and stuff, but I have no idea how to actually make anything.
     Random fact, but as a kid I wanted to be tall and slim so that I could be a model and wear pretty clothes XD I literally only wanted to be a model so that I could wear pretty clothes XD Like, legit. But as I've grown up and I see how the modeling industry is... its really not something I'd like to be a part of. I'd still like to wear pretty clothes, but its not at the top of my list XD
     As a kid I also wanted to be an ice skater, because I liked their skating outfits XD and they were so graceful and so cool to watch :) I also wanted to be a vampire as a kid XD and a werewolf, and a fairy, and an elf, and basically anything magical. However, as time goes on, I think that all that is possible less and less XD But hey! I don't think you're ever too old to be blessed with superpowers XD Each year I'm all, "Ok, God, its gonna be this year right? I'm gonna get that telekenesis or fire bending right?" XD
     Have I talked about what superpowers I'd most rather have? I'll look to see if I have. But I'll write a separate thing for that, cause I could go on for a long time XD
     Well, I think that's enough random things, its getting late (I wrote this different from when I'm posting it, btdubbs) , and I'm getting tired. So, until the next post, God Bless and Toodles! ^_^

Warcraft Review :D

   So I just saw Warcraft! XD I talked about movies I wanted to see and now I saw it. And I’ll just say that I did like it! : )   It wasn’t perfect, but I really enjoyed it and just wanted to talk about it a bit.

So, the first thing I noticed that was really good, was the CG. Wow! The orcs looked sooooo good! Like sooooo good. You can tell they put a lot of the budget on that, and just the… the visuals in general. It was very colorful and bright and it really came to life for me. And I think that motion capture has gotten so good and it really helps to make the CG characters be more alive. The only one I wasn’t terribly impressed with, though was Draka, Durotan wife. She didn’t look as good to me, dunno why.

     I also really liked how (btdubs, “spoiler warning) (also, I’m not much a spoiler warning person. Like, I don’t care if I know about a movie before I see it. I knew Han died waaaay before I saw TFA XD) the humans and the orcs have different languages that ARE NOT ENGLISH. Like, they all speak, or seem to speak in English for the movie, but there’s a part where Garona translates for them and you can hear her speaking two different languages when the English part focuses on the other species. So I thought that was really cool, because I always wonder how all the aliens always already speak English and stuff when they go to other worlds (I’m looking at you Stargate XD ). But yeah, I really liked that nod to realism there.

     I liked the lore and the story and all the Warcraftness going on. I’m a big story builder. Like, I love knowing how things are created and how a character’s backstory goes and all that. In my own stories I create as much as possible in the background before I really even think of a story. But yeah, I just really liked how you can tell that this Warcraft movie was just one slice of a gigantic story, like Lord of the Rings and stuff. I also liked how… it was different. The movie was different, and it wasn’t afraid to end on a down note of sorts. Sort of like the Chronicles of Riddick XD I remember that movie ending on a not so happy note that makes you wonder “what is next????? Please tell me!”

     Things I didn’t like as much would include the really fast start. This movies starts out really fast. You really have to pay attention to everything and really immerse yourself in the world, or you can easily get lost. You also have to really listen to the orcs because with the voice distortion on the characters, it can be hard to tell what they are saying sometimes. I wish, that the beginning went a little slower though, like especially with the magic kid all the way up to when they take Garona hostage and stuff. All that goes by really fast and sorta seems like something is missing. And that kid that plays the magic dude… I had a hard time figuring out if he was good or secretly bad. I dunno if that was the director or the actor or what, but he was weird to me.  But he got better, he did. But his character was still off a bit. I think they rushed his character, actually. He’s the main one I feel like I didn’t understand enough.

     What else? Oh! I thought it was pretty funny, too :) it wasn’t all fun and games, but there were funny bits tha weren’t out of place.

     Oh, there were also sad parts (spoiler warning again). That orc, Durotan, or whatever, he dies, but I feel like… they didn’t linger enough on his death… or they lingered on it wrong. Like… I didn’t feel as much as I thought I would. And, in general there was A LOT of death. Like a lot. More than I thought there would be, really. They really put the “war” in “warcraft” 0_o  But also, I like that they weren’t afraid to kill off characters. Cause I feel like a lot of times in movies, all the characters live and you’re like “how did that happen? How are they all still alive?” Well, that doesn’t happen in this movie XD

     All in all, I liked it—Oh! I’d like to see more good magic next time too—cause I’m looking forward to another movie and I think the international audience will make it happen XD

     So yeah! Those are the thoughts that I can remember, wait! Moses! There is a part that is totally Moses! XD and the people in front of us said it too XD But yeah, I think now thats it... i think XD

It's actually a movie I feel I need to see at least another time to fully get the grasp of though. There is a lot going on and I want to be an expert! XD 

     Anyway, till next time, God Bless and Toodles! ^_^